I can’t remember who told me about PostSecret but it’s become one of my favorite blogs. Each entry consists of a postcard that someone sent the curator to post. They are beautiful postcards with intriguing confessions.
post secret
i cant ever find the nerve to say it, so i’m waiting until one of the last days you’re in town before going to college to let you know that i love you. my only fear is that by then you would have known the whole time.
the night you told me you’d jump through hoops for me, i was the happiest person alive.
i hate you for telling the team.
not because i didnt want anyone to know,
but because you left the phone calls until 3 am, the sweet things you’ve said and all the help we’ve been to each other out of what you told them.
i like the guy i’m with, but sometimes i know i’m only with him so i can make you realize what we could have had for the past 3 years that we’ve been friends.
4 days ago when we skipped class and snuck into the locker rooms, i kissed you behind his back.. and then pulled away because it was wrong. the truth was is that all i wanted to do was hold you there. forever.
you told me that you CANT keep your hands off me.
i live with my mom, but for the last four years i’ve missed her more than anything.
i still remember that we had been talking online for about a week when i met you.
you were at chris’s house and got on his little brother joeys screen name, who was my best friend then. we talked for hours and you IMed me 2 days later from ur sn.
then one night at the little league about a week after that, brit was like “there’s the guy you were asking me bout.”
i turned around. looked back at brit, and had to deny for 2 months after that i HADNT fallen in love with you.
my secret:
if he asked me to marry him today…..i would say yes
i only love one of my five sisters
My mom didn’t want me when I was a kid…..I hate her for that!!!
i knew he was going to hurt me before anything happened.
today he told me that he didnt want a relationship and wish he would’ve had sex with this other girl last weekend.
im still willing to give him another chance.
i’ve been doing cocaine for almost a year now to escape everything.
i so desperately want a reason to stop.
i broke 4 months of sobriety just so i could be with him.
i lost him but i still have my drugs.
im so in love with you, and you’re so in love with my sister.
I’ve Loved her for 1 year now, she loves me but im so scared that i will push her away like everyone else in my life.
anon who cuts his/her wrists:
my sentiments exactly.
otherwise, my friends are dumb.
i feel guilty abt lying to them at times though.
today, my best friend and i were sitting there looking at you after school after you walked away to talk to your friends.
she said “man your so lucky he’s NEVER gonna let you go.”
i’ve heard that a million times from a thousand different people about a thousand different guys.
today was the first time i actually beleived it.
i know he feels the same, he told me before..then everything got messed up because we were so close for him to like me supposedly.
he said that he’s just afraid to hurt me like he’s done to everyone else.
the thing is he already did.
the day that we were messing around and i told you that you annoyed me so much sometimes i could just kill you..
i was being serious.
you’ll be getting a phone call from me tomorrow.
i’ll tell you to come over and watch a movie or help me with my homework from pre calc.
when you get here, i’m gonna say what i’ve been trying to get the nerve to say for 3 years.
i dont have the heart to tell him that i knew he was lying
I feel like my friends don’t approve of my boyfriend. I don’t know if it’s because I ignore them or they see that I am ignoring myself.
3 years ago I attempted to commit suicide.
Now people say I’m a perfectly happy person.
But I still want to die.
the first guy i ever loved is your best friend and my ex boyfriend of almost a year.
he’s gonna kill me when he finds out about us.
I fell in love with my snowboarding instructor. She has a french accent and braided blond hair. I loved the way she handled her board. I’ll never see her again.
I find older girls/guys easier to like.
I am in love with my boyfriend….madly. But I still drive by the house of a boy who I use to date. I still think about him whenever a heartbreaking song comes on, and I still wish I could kiss him just one more time…..
but Im going to marry my boyfriend, because Im in love with him.
my biggest secrets are…
i still think about my first real love, but i am in love with a new guy. i was raped by my first love and hit by him and i still have a burn on my leg from(i say its from my curling iron) him. he said love you in his suicide note when he killed himself on my birthday.
“i constantly yell at my best friend for doing drugs,
…but i’ve been doing coke everyday since the first day i tried it 4 months ago.
and no one knows.”
I had a major problem with this about a year ago. Before it destroys you, you need to get clean and get help. I thought i did it to party… It gave me self confidence to go out and try to get over the situation with my girlfriend. I gave her everything, i paid her rent, i loved her, i took care of her every need and she cheated on me with my dealer. Things got worse…
Its not the answer… not only health issues but friends lost respect in me, i wasted a year in college, and i got one of my friends hooked before i switched schools and got clean. Sorry bro, we did have some good times though. Most of my friends have no clue how bad it got.
Do not destroy the most beautiful thing about you… your mind. 🙂
I don’t feel so guilty for purposely breaking his heart. I feel guilty about all the people I’ve unintentionally hurt along the way. This is why I’m losing myself. I never used to be such a bitch.
everytime my boyfriend touches me i think of the bastard who molested me when I was younger,and how much i want to hate him.
but i cant. because hes my brother.
People tell me and my best guy friend that we are going to get married….We always laugh…..but really i hope that we will…..I AM SO IN LOVE WITH HIM ITS HURTS….
Todays monday
I met him friday
I fell in love *immediately*
We bonded and he asked me out Saturday
I said yes
Im pretty sure we’re soulmates
and I have never been this much in love
He says he loves me
But I KNOW its not the same way I love him
…It makes me cry.
I like going out with them because I feel like I’m “the pretty one” in the group. I think that they know this, because they constantly tell me how pretty I am… Part of me thinks that they are lying to me.
I can’t tell my fiancee that i am in love with a girl i have never met on my favorite bands message board. I love you…
23 male
i’ve been hurting myself since i was a child.
i’ve been cutting for 10 years, starving myself for 6 yrs., throwing up for 2 years.
i am afraid of the world, of everyone, even my own family. i don’t think i’ll ever feel safe on earth.
i don’t have friends because i’m scared they will scare me, or i will scare them.
i sometimes wish i could pack a bag, and disappear…or do something huge to make a difference in the world..save a life…
i constantly think i am being watched.
sometimes i think about what it would be like to be dead, if it’s what is best.
just me… read these lyrics and reall think about them
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“Well that is that and this is this.
Will you tell me what you saw and I’ll tell you what you missed,
when the ocean met the sky.
You missed when time and life shook hands and said goodbye.
When the earth folded in on itself.
And said “Good luck, for your sake I hope heaven and hell
are really there, but I wouldn’t hold my breath.”
You wasted life, why wouldn’t you waste death?
You wasted life, why wouldn’t you waste death?”
His parents don’t love him and my parents don’t love me and I’m afraid that’s why we love each other so much
If he dies when he goes to war then I’ll never forgive him for loving me better than anyone else ever has or ever will.
Every night I wonder what it would be like if he didn’t think of me like a sister.
I say there is no way i’ll get married before I graduate and go away for 18 months, but if i had a chance with him, i’d give all my dreams up.
I just turned 18 and i’ve never let anyone kiss me because i was scared.
I wonder if i’ll ever just let it happen.
“I just turned 18 and i’ve never let anyone kiss me because i was scared.
I wonder if i’ll ever just let it happen.”
im 16….and i read this, and i know how you feel. I broke up with my boyfriend because i was afriad of kissing him, and i dont know why, because i love him so much, now hes gone.
I don’t feel so guilty for purposely breaking his heart. I feel guilty about all the people I’ve unintentionally hurt along the way. This is why I’m losing myself. I never used to be such a bitch.
i agree.
i’ve loved him since the day he said “..hey..”
we fell in love.
it was the only time in my life i’ve ever been happy.
and i was happier than i think i’ll ever be.
there is no good enough reason for why we’re not together. i meant everything to that boy, and he was my world, too. i left him. and i do not know why.
he’s my perfect match.
sometimes i can feel it and i know it.
that he still loves me.
other times, i just come to grips with the fact that he’s given me chances. and i fucked up. and he loved me and gave me everything he had.
and he’ll never take me back again.
then there are those times that i just have to remember how good it was.
i pretend i’m okay.
i smile.
i don’t talk about him anymore.
he has a new girlfriend.
he loves her.
i had a new boyfriend.
i hated him.
he was only there so i wasn’t alone.
i remember the exact moment we fell in love.
it kills me.
the scariest thing about it is i feel like i’ll never feel like that again.
i want to know i can love someone again just like i love him.
but the thing is i don’t want to love anyone else.
i don’t want to let go.
i don’t want to miss him anymore.
i’m so terrified that i’ll never be able to speak to him again, but i want to atleast be friends so i can make him fall in love with me again.
i know we’ll be together again. you can’t just forget something like that.
right?
i can get any guy i want.
they know it. i know it.
he even knows it.
and he’s the only one that doesn’t want me.
but i’ll never ever want anyone else.
He will never love me…
But Ill continue giving myself to him.
again and
again.
Hes made it SO clear… he doesnt even care.
David Trudgain is a predator.
I’ve always had everything I’ve ever wanted but secretly I wish I’d had a really bad life because then I wouldn’t feel so guilty for being so angry
I hate the fact that people point out that I’ve always had everything I’ve ever wanted. It’s not my fault I’ve had a good life
I’m so desperately trying to be happy that I worry that I love my boyfriend just because he loves me and puts me first
I’m scared that I don’t really love my boyfriend
In fact, I know I don’t really love my boyfriend
I’m still in love with the boy who left and would do anything he asked despite the fact that it breaks my heart just to think about him
I hate myself for loving someone that never loved me and that left me, and for not loving the one person who does actually love me
I am a horrible person
I wish I had told him how sorry I was that his father died
I lie so often that I can’t remember what I made up
I’m in love with my gay best friend.
I wish my mother would just hit me rather than messing with my head.
I wish I could tell you…
I’ve been seeing a shrink, but I am so good at hiding my emotions I just lie to her too.
I am afraid of loosing my virginity.
I made up a boyfriend and pretended to be him online to convince my friends he was real.
My friends think I’m more well versed in international affairs than they are, but I’m smart enough to manipulate them into believing everything I’ve made up.
Smart IS sexy.
I wish I could cry and mean it.
I told him I didn’t want to walk home with him because I couldn’t. I physically could, but I emotionally couldn’t. I’m in love with him, and I’m pretty sure he feels the same way about my best friend. He played with my heart, and he broke it in the process.
i broke up with him
because he was chinese
and i was white.
I’m scared that if this ends one day, I’ll be another person posting “I’m with someone else…but I’ll never love anyone like I loved him. Like I still love him.”
It scares me that I actually care about him this much. It scares me that he actually cares about ME this much.
well, i’m with this boy that i thought i loved enough to leave my best/boyfriend to be with. now he wont talk to me at all.
he said he’d never lie to me, but he did.
now i’m friendless in this town dating someone in another city who lies to me.
i broke into his emails when we werent talking. i know i shouldnt have.
but i found out about it, and now i’m not sure how to call him out on it. because he won’t tell me the truth, but i know.
I told everyone he raped me. I was willing, but afraid what people would think.
im going out with my best friend even though i swore i never would.