I can’t remember who told me about PostSecret but it’s become one of my favorite blogs. Each entry consists of a postcard that someone sent the curator to post. They are beautiful postcards with intriguing confessions.
post secret
let me find love and be kind to it.
i’m trying so hard to keep loving you
but you make it so difficult
Im such a fucking idiot for leaving you.
Geoff, I still love you and Im praying you’ll take me back.
im looking at you right now laying on the sofa and all i want to do is cross the room and kiss you and remind you that i really do love you more than a friend and all i want you to do is kiss me back when i look at you i smile i cant do any thing else i love you so much its the best feeling in the world
today i relise that you three are my home i look at you and feel safe safer than i have ever been and no matter where we are i will be at home with you all beside me protecting me loving me accepting me the way i do for you i love you all
my guys
my life
my loves
my rocks
my sanity
my home
thankyou for giving it too me
*I love my best friend i thought he loved me- i was wrong. he sees me as a sister and that hurts more than i could possibly put into words.
I havnt been to church for 6-7 months i dont feel i can go now but im allwys thinking of it. ive never felt further from god and it scares me. what if i die tommorow and go to hell. what scares me more is what if my family die tommorow and they go to hell. i love them.
I read these messages on this board and on post secret and people say stuff that is supposed to shock and be different but i relate to most of them. 1 in particular about there pets. my 3 lovely cats would be the first thing i would save on this whole planet there like my children. i think there the only things in the world that truely understand you, truely listen, dont judge and are allways there to give you a big snuggle on a rainy day.
My family excpect As and A*s from me in my gcses and alevels because i was a bright kid. im now predicted Bs and i no its still good on the whole scheme of things but i feel like a failure.
i cut myself and tried to kill myself 3 times. i still class it as an option. i wish there was anouther one.
I judge people for all things like being over weight but really im judging myself im 11 stone and feel obese.
ive been staring at this for like half an hour im scared to click’post’ for fear of being judged or recognised
i didn’t tell you that he’s cut off his relationship with her
and…i didn’t correct your wrong thoughts.
so…you think i’m over him
but…i’m not. not at all.
To Daisy:
I fell in love with one of my closest friends — he was actually my best friend’s boyfriend but we met him at the same time months before they started dating. And he and I became very close friends.
He saw me as a friend and a sister … he wrote me once telling me so — I guess he sensed how I felt since I had never told him I loved him nor even suggested it to him. A few years later while they were still dating and my friendship with her had diminished, he started sleeping with me. I wanted him to fall in love with me, that’s why I slept with him, stupidly thinking that would help. For years. But he never did fall in love. He just satisfied himself and left. I’m still hurt years later even though I know it was my choice to allow it.
I regret sleeping with him because it ruined the wonderful friendship we once had. But I have often wondered if my heart would have been strong enough to have remained friends while I still loved him more than he could return. It probably would have been too much to bear.
I’ve always believed that you can’t help who you fall in love with.
I couldn’t help falling in love with him.
And he couldn’t help NOT falling in love with me.
Sometimes there just isn’t that spark. Keep your chin up. Somebody else will come along who will love you as you love them. If he had been your soulmate he would love you in return. So that must mean there’s still someone out there!
I didnt even realize until a second ago, this is not a forum…Its a [b]Blog[/b]
for once in my life, i have no secrets. i told them all to you. and whenever i was about to post a secret here, you would either call me, or i would tell you sooner or later. no matter how self-absorbed, embarassing, or depressing the secret was, i told you, and you listened. you know everything about me. even after i told you my biggest secret (that i cut myself before our friend’s pool party), you talked me through it. you where there for eveything i had a problem with. for everything i needed to talk to someone about. i love you, always remember that and i cant wait until tomorrow night at homecoming where i can dance with you.
thank you for everything youve done for me. i love you.
for once in my life, i have no secrets. i told them all to you. and whenever i was about to post a secret here, you would either call me, or i would tell you sooner or later. no matter how self-absorbed, embarassing, or depressing the secret was, i told you, and you listened. you know everything about me. even after i told you my biggest secret (that i cut myself before our friend’s pool party), you talked me through it. you where there for eveything i had a problem with. for everything i needed to talk to someone about. i love you, always remember that and i cant wait until tomorrow night at homecoming where i can dance with you.
thank you for everything youve done for me. i love you.
– I love my husband, but trying to get him to get ready to go to work is like trying to get a third grader to get ready for school.
– I wonder if he loves me.
– When we were seperated, he promised he would stay faithful, that he just needed some time, that I was the only one for him, but he took a few women on dates, and though he denys it, I KNOW that he fucked at least one. I know he does it because now that we’ve been back together (for nearly a year) we’ve been so happy, and gained a new outlook on life and our relationship. I can decide if I would be okay with it if he fessed up, or if it would break me. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that I KNOW he did, so what does it matter? I just wish he’d tell me the truth.
– Part of me wishes that I wasn’t such a fiercely faithful and loving retard. Maybe he’d cherish me more if he didn’t know that I’ll always love him and stay with him.
– I feel like I’m 40, but I’m nowhere near there
– I want to get rid of my right leg, just below the knee. It preoccupies most of my thoughts during some periods of time.
– I wish that he would do something romantic and beautiful for me, instead of sitting in front of the computer in his spare time.
– Today I burnt the fuck out of myself trying to cook a meal I know he won’t even TOUCH, because I want him to feel loved. By the way, I tried it myself. It wan’t very good, even though I spent 3 hours preparing it, trying to cut every little slice of vegitable perfectly. I’ve never had to cook for myself, until we moved in together, and most of the time we buy fast food, or frozen pre-prepared meals.
– I used to be confident in my ability to be an adult, but now I realize that in a bunch of ways, I’m still a kid.
– I’m terrified of dying, but I’m excited too.
– I JUST realized that I don’t know everything, or what’s best, and that no matter how hard I try I can’t save everyone.
– I just realized that I’m having problems saving MYSELF.
– I can’t have any sympathy for myself, or doing something to take care of myself if I think of myself as myself. So if I have an infected wound on my arm, for example, I have to say, “Oh, poor little arm!!! He doesn’t deserve that!!!” and think of it as someone else’s or disembodied.
– Appearently all of my parts are male, even though I’m a woman… go figure…
– I name inanimate objects, and I feel as if they actually have a spirit.
– I pride myself on being non-judgemental, and open-minded, but I LOATHE people who hate people for things they can’t change.
kitty_the_goddess_of_doom@hotmail.com
last night, when you asked me if i was okay, was the first time in a long time i had to fake a smile. it hurt like hell. and the worst part is, is that i had to fake one to you.
im mad and sad that he took you away from during a slow song. and even though you said you would make it up, i dont think i’ll ever get get that dance.
ever.
I didn’t read your email. I deleted it.
and it felt fantastic.
BYE BYE!!
ugh. i hate my life. i love my guy, but i hate this person who likes me. T________T and i think im bi. well who gives, secrets are hidden and still havent been released.
did i anger you? why are you letting your friendship go to waste?
or do you still want me to do everything?
take some initiative for once.
my secret is im falling apart and i dont think i can hold it together much longer.i put on this smile every day and its killing me and for the first time last night i had to fake a smile to you and my heart just broke i told you i would never lie to you but here i am telling you the worst lie. im not ok its killing me and i dont think i will get through it with out you.
help me please i dont wanna go through this again by my self i dont think i can please dont make me do this alone help
I wish I could hurt him as much as he has hurt me. I want to be cruel and say all of the true but painful things that I know about him to him, to break him down like he has broken me. I want him to try and call so I can be cold to him. I wish I could just let the past go, but I’m tired of being hurt and angry but “too nice” to lash out and hurt him back. I really want to ask him how it feels to live up to be what his parents always told him he would be. What a waste of what was once a good man.
I’m never happy but nobody can tell because I always smile… I fake it because nobody can possibly understand
Everyone is downstairs right now: talking, laughing, being happy.
I’m up here, alone, because I just threw up my dinner.
I always throw up after eating now. It makes me feel better.
They think I’m getting ready to go out with my friends to a haunted house.
They’re only half right.
I’m going to a party, and I’m planning on getting wasted so I don’t have to remember this in the morning.
Maybe even he’ll be there.
God, I hope he’ll be there.
i’ve never stopped being bulimic. i need help. i’m too scared to ask. my body is giving up on me. i want to be better. please – God, anyone…help me be better. i wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy. ever.
dear E,
please, [b][u]please[/u][/b] email me so we can talk.
my email is dlarkin@mugglenet.com
-just_until_december
my brother is now my sister, and i hate her for that
I met a girl on MySpace.
Fell in love with her.
Promised her everything.
I lied to her about my age.
She was older than me.
She thought I was a year older than her.
Then she said she’d come visit me.
I got scared.
I faked my death on MySpace.
She sometimes calls.
I tell my family not to pick up because she’s a girl from school who I’m fighting with.
It kills me everyday.
I wonder if she still remembers me.
Most likely.
I’m so sorry.
If I could, I’d do it all again.
Andistillloveher.
I pity none of you. Most of your probalems are at your own fault. If you truly want happiness like you all say, then change the bad. relax. breath. stop lieing. i am not perfect. i know this. i accept it. but who is. if you are truly unhappy, change it. anyone can be happy and love. it all depends, do you want to?
Hey dis, be more of a dick next time.
because i supposed being abused, raped, molested happened because the person caused it to.
And hun, i pity you, because only someone with less than an ounce of sympathy would post what you posted.
I can’t deal with myself anymore.
My secret is killing me. I already cofessed it to every wesite I could. But I will never tell anybody in real life.
So. Tonight.
I’m going to buy a gun.
GOODBYE WORLD.
The horrible thing is I’ve never been more happy in the last 7 years.
I wish you wouldn’t.
I’m going to lose sleep tonight
to taylor
if you happy then dont we will all lose sleep untill we know you are safe share your secret with us and ease the burden please dont do this think of the people you love and the things you will be missing
if fell so disconected from every one i feel totaly alone and yet surrounded by people my secret is that im am a compulsive lier and im pretty good at it people truse what i say and belive in me and i can seem to stop it ive even started lying to my self and i do it to see how much people trust me and what i can get away with but because of this no one knows the real me appart from him and now i feel disconected from you im drowning in a sea of people with no one to save me i dont think you have noticed have you
i disagree with the person who said “I pity none of you. Most of your probalems are at your own fault…..” i respect every one on here for sharing your secrets with the world. i read on one of these sites that people make the secrets up. well if they do then its very sad and thats a secret in itself but also it gives me and many others great comfort to read peoples secrets and relate to them even if there lies. they say ignorance is bliss and all.
lastly i have 1 thing 2 say,
i hope im not to late but ‘Just_unti;_december’ don’t do it. youve helped me by reading your comment let others help you. there is a light atthe end of the tunnel. thankyou and god speed everyone he is with you.
i didnt post the comment that taylor did, samantha.
“I’m going to get drunk and have you fulfill all my fantasies.”
Fuck you.
It’s over.
i hate for oh so many reasons.
youre the reason why me and him got into some of our fights.
for being a cocky bitch. (by the way, he does not think youre hot and he would not have watched you strip tease. probably wouldve made him sick.)
for scratching him (he just got rid of his scars, he doesnt need more)
for trying to pull me away from him when i needed him.
for lying to me, saying he was keeping that a secret.
for going back and forth between jack and cj.
for getting me involved with you and cj’s argument that one night.
for being so damn perfect and superior.
for treating me like i was shit.
for making me depressed, and emo.
whenever i had something good, you had to have better.
for telling me that raicuda likes you above all.
for loving beelzebub.
then go back to cj and jack after you said that.
for considering to help daeva instead of saying no.
for making me believe you were something you werent.
for wanting sympathy when you deserve none.
and finally, for getting engaged to him when you know you dont love him!
and now that we arent friends, ive never been happier!
ive been feeling disconected for such a while and you have noticed i didnt relise what you were trying to tell me but i get it my ‘blond’ moments i get it. so i went to see the doctor i havent been my self acting a little crazy dumb forgetful spaced out you name it i know youve seen it in me over the past month or so im sorry sweetheart i know youve been worried
but now im scared and need you to come and save me the doctor says it could be stress or depression but theres nothing she is willing to do so now i need you to save me this is my call to you coz i can do this alone any more im drowning
tonight im gonna tell you everything and i hope you stay and dont think im crazy i hope you can save me and above all i hope that you will still love me and i hope i see that smile
i love you honey please acept me as i am
-i used to be in love with my cousin.
-a popular guy likes me.
-i dont no if i like him.
-i would go out with him tho.
-i hate that i sound this mean.
-because i like another guy, whos goofier
-i feel more like myself with him.
-but i dunno if he really likes me back
-and if he did, he would prolly think one or two things:
-that i am a slut because i flirt with the guy that i actaully like, and then go be hugged for like an hour by the popular guy.
-that i dont like him because im always with the popular guy.
-the p guy always talks about how hot i am, and that we should do it(we havent even gone out yet)
-i thouhgt he was joking, but after getting the 80 millionth message about how we would do it, i dont really think he is.
-im just trying to fiugre out life!
-last year, i moved away from my good friends to sit with my more popular friends, and its lame over there.
-now some of my ppopular friends are ‘slipping’ and want to go sit with the less popular people.
-even tho i dont like sitting where i sit, i DONT want to sit with them. there sooo annoying and dont like me cause they think im shallow.
-(and i might be)
-but when it comes to love, im TOTALLY BLIND
-the guy i like is not THAT good looking
-and i think im afraid to go into a relationship
-i couldnt figure out why, but i think its because i keep comparing all the new people i meet with my cousin who i was in love with
-who is a total flirt and has like 50 bajillion girls liking him
-and did stuff with me, and basically ignores me now.
i just want a VACATION now.
oh and i think my friend is a lesbian
she follows me everywhere, and makes sexual remarks (like more than just joking..its not appropiate) about like girls. its getting creepy tho cause i think she likes me. like really, other wise i wouldnt be posting this. and she confided in me all these problems shes been having at home, and im relally not that close with her. then at the beginning of the school year, she started becoming annoying. i cant STAND being around her, shes shallow and stupid and makes fun of people and has like no friends anymore. but i feel bad cause all of her best friends (me and other peolple…yes we are her bffs even tho we arent really that close) are like annoyed with her
and she still might be having problems.
im sorry.
but im really not.
well she came and went and came and went you see te pattern
my secret is i dislike you and worse yet the guy you love hates you (or that what he tells me) but he so scared of being alone and (you a free s*$g ps not my words his) and how dare you come in to our house and change everything putting down your stupid rules its my house and these guys are mine im not gonna change just for you and im not gonna let them either i saw the look on your face last weekend when we were us and ten you came up with those stupid rules for him (ps we already broke them……..the only time im in my own bed is when your here )
i know i sound nasty but we were doing great getting on haveing fun and then you came and changed him in to an old man and i hate you for that i want him back the guy i got to know and the guy i fell in love with (as my friend as my “brother”)
Yeah, I think my best friend is a lesbian too. My mom and brother always make comments about it. When I’m with my boyfriend, she’s behind me and literally cringes. And she’s very physically affectionate. And she takes our little “gay” jokes too far sometimes. We have joke pet names. And she gets irritated when my boyfriend calls me hers for me. She’s had one boyfriend that she never even hugged. Never been kissed. Never seems to like anyone…
i wouldn’t stop being friends with her over this. but sometimes.. it grates my nerves.
ya about the lesbian friend thing…
(im the one who wrote the upper one)
i would prolly still be friends with her..
it just is soooo annoying that its so obbvious yet no one else seems to see it. and i want her to admit it. but i think IM the one she likes. which kind of creeps me out a little. not that i have anyhting against her if she is like that. she makes up the most out there stories and lies about the guys shes kissed and then will confide in me that shes never had a boyfried or a guy..and doesnt really want one(she says she doesnt want a boyfriend but subtle says she doesnt want a guy…its what im getting at here). and she always brings up ways for us to strip (swimming, getting ready for a dance..etc)
but also, she is driving me NUTS and i CANT STAND to be around her anymore, so ive tryed distancing from her(its over unrelated issues why shes being annoying) and like…i cant handle it anymore.
and i feel bad.
BUT STOP IT!!
I got reasons why I tease them
boys just come and go like seasons.
all you people that are talking about how your friends are lesbians really need to get over yourselves, i know your type if you and your friends are walking in the mall and a guy checks you guys out you think he’s only checking you out. You think every guy is head over heals for you but it’s not possible for them to like someone else instead, now its not only that guys like you but your so called best friends too? Give me a break and get over yourself unless your friend puts the moves on you I wouldn’t worry about it… it could just be possible that they are affriad to put themselves out there for guys cause they are afriad of getting shot down because they have friends like you that make them feel less then the dirt on your shoes because they couldn’t possibley be good enough!
You liked me once once upon a time
and I blew you off
you moved on
now i like you
but all we do is get drunk and mess around
_someone is bond to get hurt_
_this time it’s me_
get_over_yourselves:
lol No, actually, I don’t think every guy is checking me out. In fact, I was just talking at lunch today how stupid I think it is when guys freak out and assume gay guys like every guy.
My friend, has in fact, shown questionable behavior, including saying things to make my boyfriend mad at me and apparently stroking me while I sleep. My own mother witnessed this. I do not pull such ideas out of thin air.
Please get over YOUR self and butt out. You know nothing about me. And I think I’d know my best friend better than you, kthnx, don’t let the door hit you in the a**! 😀
I started cutting myself again last week. It weird because id been really proud of myself for not doing it for like 6 months. and sudenly i just did it again.you’d think id feel dissapointed with myself but i almost geta feeling of accomplishment when looking at the scar and i pick it to make it worse. but im feeling happier now than i have done it quite a long time. I’m starting to get over the boy i feel i was madly in lovewith (my best friend) and im going to prom with someone else. we spent all night mucking about how were gonna be famous the new posh becks and name r first kid Rome lol. Hes such a laugh but im still cutting myself. i dont understand why but it doesnt feel bad.
i’m still kind of scared to move on from you,
but i might do it soon.
because what i have now..
makes me feel a hell of a lot better.
i got over one addiction for you..
but now i’m addicted to you.
and you know i like you,
but i don’t think you realise how much.
im addicted to making myself perfect for you.
i even pierced my tongue for you.
and its taken me a year for me to admit this to myself. how am i ever gonna tell you?
i wish you would just kiss me.. just once.
i’d be so happy.
…just once.
x
im giving up on making plans with you. they always end up not working out or your mom yelling at you.
i just killed myself.
should i do it?
my friend is telling me all about how my ex is trying to pick her up.
tells her the same lines he told me…
plays the “she broke my heart. i’ll never love again” card…
he’s is like, two different people. Online and in a real life. Online he’s perfet. Real life, falls short.
It was today I learned that some things are never going to change. And I can’t believe I thought he would for me.
I’m glad to know this. Because I am so happy I’m not a link in his sick twisted cycle anymore. I got out. He can’t hurt me anymore. I like the feeling of knowing that. I thought he would forever. Then I realized I have CONTROL.
I look at you with such disdain, you liar. How could you grow up to be such utter scum?