FIGHT FOR LIFE PROJECT. I'm a social scientist/journalist living in Alberta, Canada searching for 1) personal stories on people living in Alberta who have had a family member suffering from any psychiatric disorder whose life ended in suicide, 2)personal stories from Alberta psychiatric patients/family members who have not been able to access an ethical standard of medical care for themselves/their relative, 3)stories from/about Alberta patients who have relapsed after going off medication on doctors advice/tacit permission. Any stories on the failures of the Alberta Medical system to provide ethical, accessible service to psychiatric patients Stories should be detailed yet concise, double spaced and written under a pseudonym to protect patient/family privacy. I am looking for facts rather than writing style.Include a telephone number and/or e-mail address so that I can contact you if I need further details. I do not open files so please send cut and paste e-mail or mail hard copy to Fight For Life c/o 9848 Oakhill Drive SW, Calgary, Alberta T2V 3X2. The collection of stories will be used to build the foundation of the province-wide Fight For Life Campaign in memory of all those that the system has failed. I am assisted in this project by a number of members in good standing of the Schizophrenia Society of Alberta, Calgary Chapter. Please feel free to circulate this notice far and wide. E. Matthews.

You know what I think you shouldn't have ways to kill yourself on a website!That's taking an easy way out.You have to live life and live the things that go with it.

It's me again,Stop writing ways to kill yourself and start writing ways to teach people that they can fix their problems. Think of people that might really care about you and the way that your death will affect them.Maybe you want to kill yourself because no one likes you. Instead of thinking that way think that in the future you will have someone that cares deeply about you.When you have problems like this try to fix them not just 'oh i tried this way and it didn't help oh well'.Try every possible solution and be happy that at least you tried everything you could to solve a problem.Don't worry everything will get better,it always does for me,but what do I know I'm only 13 years old.

Wow. I wrote this 9 months ago and its quite crass. So i thought that i would clarify my opinion.

I am not depressed, nor looking for ways to kill myself. But i do recognize that most people die in a brutal amount of pain. This is the fallacy of American culture. There are different notions to suicide: one is to take one's life out of a selfish need. The second is to take one's life before one dies due to pain, simply because the unnecessary pain, suffering and medical expenses stem out of a foolish misreading of Christian texts.

When a friend's mother was dying of cancer, she asked her children to come take her home from the hospital. She was dying and the doctorshad given up all forms of treatment. She was in a lot of pain. She asked her son to let her go in peace. He acquired a lethal dose of pain killers and in the presence of her children, she slipped safely into the other side. She died happy, speaking with her children, leaving on her terms not the medical industrial complex's. And the only reason they were able to do this was because they were not in the US.

From my perspective, i will take my life when i am no longer able to take care of myself, when i am a burden on those around me and when i am in so much perpetual pain that life is not really being lived. Not all acts of suicide are simply selfish, but many of complex relationships to those around you.

I would rather die in peace, saying my goodbyes to those that i love than in anguish and pain when my body can't take the weight of the pain any longer.

Sorry - but you're wrong on quite a few things there, Zephoria. You need to take some responsibility for what you write, as well. When you write a page and post it on the web, a lot of different people can read it. Some people are more impressionable than others, so grow up.

1. 'Most people' do NOT die 'in a brutal amount of pain'. Pain control is much, much better these days than it was a few years ago. I've had a couple of relatives die of cancer. They weren't in any pain. Your remarks are reactionary and dangerous.

2. Suicide generally destroys people's lives. It leaves terrible feelings of guilt with those left behind - regardless of the motives. It is selfish.

Now - stop being such a drama queen, and get out and live your life, instead of sitting on your arse and dreaming up ways to kill yourself.

i want to die please tell me how i can kill myself

hi i think that suicide is cool and i want to do it right now but want the easiest way of doing it so have a great live

hi,
Well the pain i'm going through i feel like killing my self every moment i live and would hate to see the next minute at any point of time. Life has become pointless seems have lost track and pain is elivated every moment.

Please tell me the easisest way out. Though I've found a few.
bye
BP

Hi brother..i want to know the easy way to cut my life without pain...help me

Why do people think there is a way to stop someone from killing himself? In my experience, a person has already made up his mind about ending himself before opening his mouth or seeking a place on the net where to talk about these things. So it doesn't make any difference what people say once you start thinking how to commit suicide.

What is the best way to write about something as personal as this?

Well, I admit, on several occasions I've harmed my self. Cut my arm and went to my suicide location. Spent sleepness nights, lonely nights, pain filled nights.

What pain? What suffering? What excuses do I have? Well, I don't think I should tell you. I'm not commenting to be torn down by 'reactionaryies' or pro-life visionaries.

However, I'll say this... People respect me, many love me. I have a strong reciprocal adult relationship. I have sex when I want. I work hard, have a nice body, am intelligent and have finished a 1/3 of my work for a hard science PhD. And I am young, but not too young. I practice Yoga several times a week, exercise, and blah , blah I do it right. Stick to it...

Learn to relax, no let me tell you something. Or let me ask you something? Do you really believe in what you believe? Do you really accept God or are you lying to yourself. Have you looked life in the eye? Do you try? Or are you so bloated from what society says or you religion says or you body for that matter, that you can't realize that life is suffering?

And yes, I've been on Prozac, Zoloft, and now on Paxil. And I've even started on Ayurveda, ancient hindu herbal medicine. Does it work? A little... but life is still there beating us in the face?

What are we here for? What do we see in nature? Well let me tell you it is fucking? Or more politely it is procreation and the evolvement of life. Protect life.

We are slaves serving an unknown master for an unknown cause. We are brought into this world and forced to solve problems that we didn't start. Isn't that what a slave does? And then we are suppose to say "thank you, massa. please don't beat me." And then turn our eyes when something happens to our brother or sister or anyone one else, even an animal or an insect.

Turn a blind eye. Yes, how many people can not have the courage, but just look and try to live life and accept it for what it is and not for some imagined state of being?

Because there is a real world. Scientists and engineers make automobiles run and planes fly, they don't do it by magic. It is a reality independent of our beliefs in it.

And scientifically, or logically, what happens after we die? Where are all the dead people? If they are in some mystical realm, wouldn't they have come back for one of us? To tell us in a definitive way? You mean to tell me there isn't anyone who loves us that much to prove it. Not like Jesus and then dissappear for 2000 years, but stay around. Why isn't there a governing council of the dead?

And you want to analyze me? Whatever... if you take anything away from this, remember that there are people who admit that the purpose of life is unknown and good people suffer for no just cause and for the most part when we die we are dead

and when you accept that into your heart, you want to die, without any fantasies around you. However, there are people who have spent their lives looking into the light many scientists, leaders, and ordinary people and have seen the pain and fought on... admitting they didn't know

and those are the people who inspire me, however, who am I or anyone else to cast the stone on another if life gets to hard? Anyways, how much of us is determined by genetics anyways?

Hey I see it this way death is a person who loves killing i guess.....
Every time i see a family member die i am sad really sad
So i get angry at death so i see it this way i make death wait because i will die anyway so srew it you know you dont have a choice really wether to die now or later. You will die You dont know what will happen after death but in life you know what is going to happen 80% of the time so Just live now your life will end sooner or later let it HAPPEN LATER lIVE so you make a difference bad and good for me please

Hey I see it this way death is a person who loves killing i guess.....
Every time i see a family member die i am sad really sad
So i get angry at death so i see it this way i make death wait because i will die anyway so srew it you know you dont have a choice really wether to die now or later. You will die You dont know what will happen after death but in life you know what is going to happen 80% of the time so Just live now your life will end sooner or later let it HAPPEN LATER lIVE so you make a difference bad and good for me please

i also feel the pain. it feels like everything that is hidden in your inside is about to explode, but you somehow have to keep it in you, keep things in place. until one day when pain is too much to take, you will want to let go and stop. i dunno where i could hide, i dunno who i could talk to. the way i keep myself together is by cutting myself. for me, a little of the pain is released when i see blood coming out of the wound. although only a little of the pain is released, it feel better afterward. i want to die. i want to let go of this pain. i want to scream. i can't seek any help, people wouldn't believe me. they will think i just want to attract attentions because i behave so normally most of the time. but no one knows that the pain is killing me inside. i want a rest, a long rest. i want to die.

i also feel the pain. it feels like everything that is hidden in your inside is about to explode, but you somehow have to keep it in you, keep things in place. until one day when pain is too much to take, you will want to let go and stop. i dunno where i could hide, i dunno who i could talk to. the way i keep myself together is by cutting myself. for me, a little of the pain is released when i see blood coming out of the wound. although only a little of the pain is released, it feel better afterward. i want to die. i want to let go of this pain. i want to scream. i can't seek any help, people wouldn't believe me. they will think i just want to attract attentions because i behave so normally most of the time. but no one knows that the pain is killing me inside. i want a rest, a long rest. i want to die.

im 14 yrs old. i cant take this anymore. im failing skool and shit. my life is goen downhill. im thinking about killing myself. but im scared of wut lyes ahead after suicide. Hell? wut should i do?? :(

im 14 yrs old. i cant take this anymore. im failing skool and shit. my life is goen downhill. im thinking about killing myself. but im scared of wut lyes ahead after suicide. Hell? wut should i do?? :(

im 14 yrs old. i cant take this anymore. im failing skool and shit. my life is goen downhill. im thinking about killing myself. but im scared of wut lyes ahead after suicide. Hell? wut should i do?? :(

I want to die i just dont want to go with out experiencing the joy of sex can anyone help. I am in fort wayne and go to Northrop High School please come visit me between 12:30 and 1:05 you can even take me with you if you would like you can just kidnap me and keep me away please do this soon. If you come in at 12:00 go to the planetarium and ask for Deborah K. and I will go with you please help. I am also ok for girls too. I have my tongue pierced too. Someone please come take me from this pain.

I want to die i just dont want to go with out experiencing the joy of sex can anyone help. I am in fort wayne and go to Northrop High School please come visit me between 12:30 and 1:05 you can even take me with you if you would like you can just kidnap me and keep me away please do this soon. If you come in at 12:00 go to the planetarium and ask for Deborah K. and I will go with you please help. I am also ok for girls too. I have my tongue pierced too. Someone please come take me from this pain. thats in Indiana

i want to be kidnapped and i want to have sex before i die so someone in Fort Wayne Indiana come to Northrop High School at around 12:00 and go to the Planetarium and ask for debbie k and just take me away. I am ok with the whole two girls and a guy thing plus i have my tongue pierced and no gag reflexes. Please come get me and take me away. i need the experience of sex please someone help me.

Dear Sir/Madam,

I am a Homeless person in San Francisco.

Because of my having befriended an African American male for 22 years, I was never afraid of going in and out of Homeless shelters where most of the clients are African Americans.

Yet due to unfortunate public verbal abuse expressed by the very friend I mentioned above, I now fear African Americans.

It so happens that my Filipino counselor at the City PAES program tells me that I "HAVE TO" see her African American boss before an arrangement can be made for me to see another counselor (I had questionable encounter with a white counselor who was provoking me and thus had to ask the City for a change of counselors.)

I am 51 years old with very little energy left to be of much service to the nation or humanity...

Because of a police record in Berkeley which cannot be expunged, I much doubt I could purchase a gun.

I feel there is no other option for me but to seek out a way to end my life.

I'd appreciate if you could send me information how I may exit this troubled world most painlessly.

And please do not try to talk me out of it.

- Margaret

I,m 23 years old, have my own house that is paid for, and a good job. My life isnt the worst but i think that if you want to take your own life that that is your bussiness, no one elses. I personally am considering it at this very moment.The only reason that i probably wont do it is because i'm scared that I will go to hell. The US government wants you to live so that they can tax you, tell you what to think, and tell you what to do. With out us, this nation would collapse. The sooner the better if you ask me.

I dont know what to do im always thinking of it i just cant stop how can i suicide painlessly

I am pretty much ready to go, but I fear what it will do to my wife and my son. I have a bad spinal injury that causes constant terrible pain. I can't get away from the pain when I am awake. I am always sad when I wake up because I know the pain will come rushing back in only a few seconds. It is a horrible way to live and I'm tired of it.

I've been battling suicide for the last year, and have made three attempts in the past, one a head on car accident with no seatbelt, one taking every single prescription pill in the house, and once i sliced my forearm open and let it bleed out, unfortunately none of them were a success (obviously), If my father had not come home and found me unconcious i would not be here, and i would have preferred it that way. I've been into mental hospitals for self harm on a few occasions and they were no assistance at all. When you have lost all of your friends because of the issues i've had in my life that they couldn't deal with, when people you fall in love with continue to lie and decieve me, when my family is nowhere to be seen for support, it leaves me feeling worthless, unwanted and useless. I've become nothing but a burdon on anyone around me, and anyone i talk to just doesn't understand. There are few people that are prepared to help, and they are those who have already experianced what it is like to lose someone to suicide, and that is keeping me alive at the moment, two people, of whom i dont even know, the best friend of my ex, who was the catalyst for all of this. Having no job, having lived in my car for 6 months before someone helped me get a roof over my head, unable to put food in the fridge, having the police cost me my job because of a breach of privacy and a legal fight against the police because of it, being in mediation with the whole family to try and repair the damage that has been done. Being continually knocked back for jobs because "we dont think you'll fit in" or "you dont fit the culture but you have the exact experiance were looking for. Almost everyone i've come across in this world is selfish and immoral who will say what others think they want to hear to get what they want, Most are subversive and deceptive. I've done everything i can to try and regain my spirit, i've got professional help, tried antidepressants and they just leave you feeling nothing, never happy, but never sad. Thats still no life. At my last attempt which was almost a success (bleeding out for 4 hours before dad found me outside) i was asessed psychologically, they sent me home saying that i was still thinking RATIONALLY. THIS IS THE ISSUE, it has become a rational decision to end my life, i have concidered all of the options and tried just about all of them. Reading many of the messages here there are some who are looking for an easy way out, there are others who know their time is comming and want to have their final moments the way they want them to be, and there are others that have made a concise decision through rational thinking to end their life as it is. One thing i will say is that suicide is not a true option for ONE thing not going right, your whole life has to have basically stopped before you even consider death if your not ill. And one other thing. If you are in so much emotional pain, you do not feel any physical pain, and i say this from experiance. so trying to find a way to commit suicide without pain, if you have enough pain, your already there. as for those others seeing as i have considered many options, the easiest way is short and fast. lay your head over train tracks, noise then a few seconds later, nothing, no time to register any pain. Jump off a building and imagine your flying with your eyes closed, you wont survive the fall, if you do, your time is not up and you still have a purpose. Inject yourself with enough heroin and cocaine to put you in a coma, but this can be expensive (about 1000 bucks would be enough to cover how much you would need). As you can see i've thought about this irrationally and rationally over the last few years, and battled with it seriously for the last 12 months or so.
A friend into the spritual side of things said that if you commit suicide that you will come back (reincarnation) and relive the same pain over and over and do the same thing as a punishment for taking your life. Maybe we'll never know. Either way, ITS TODAYS 'SOCIAL SYSTEM' that causes the problem. If people could find a way not to hate, not to lie this world would not be full of so much pain.
When your time is up, your time is up.
I live life to love life, but i cannot love life if there is no love within it.
I wish everyone all the best with their battles and hope the best comes for you all, my clock is already ticking, monday is the day set, noone knows. Three days to make amends and say my goodbyes to those i care deeply for. Time is running out

only the weak ones kill themselfs...the strong endure until the last second, head held high ready for the end.

only the weak ones kill them selfs...the strong endure until the last second, head held high ready for the end.
yes thats true but reality is i am weak and emotionally empty,
i couldn't find enough reasons to keep myself alive(for what, why should i continue suffer this pain of non contained, worthlessness, pointless life, aimless, meaningless life).
I am alone and lonely, though i am having my family and friends around me i don't feel like i stay alive just for that reason.

I am unhappy and in this state from last few years,i don't enjoy anything,
i don't have any feeling of joy or sadness, i don't feel like talking to my family, i ignore my old friends, i just want somehow-someone to switch the main powers off and end every feeling and sense that i have.

I understand all of the feelings expressed by all of you here who want to end your life now, or at some point.
I've had suicidal urges at various times throughout my life, but have never seriously attempted it due to fear of the unknown (I'm basically a coward) and not knowing a tried and true painless method of doing it. I realize that taking your life may affect those around you, but our life is the one and only thing that each and every one of us has that we can call "our own' - regardless of age, race, geography, socio-economic status, etc...

In my estimation, everyone has a right to do as he or she pleases with that life - because no one can ever really know or understand a person's pain, despite how much they think. All of us do selfish things in life - it's human nature - otherwise we'd all be Buddhas and Jesuses. The decision to end one's own pain, or to end one's own life for whatever reasons (the judgement of "good or bad" reasons is completely subjective) is just another act of human behavior. It seems to be in our nature as humans to feel this urge, considering all of the suicides - successful, attempted or just thought about - throughout our existence.

My heart goes out to all of you - whether you decide to end it all or not. I know what it is to feel despair and complete loneliness, despite not being alone. I also sympathize with the terminally ill, who do not want to endure unnecessary pain and discomfort before the end. I and my family watched my father endure extreme pain and discomfort as he was succumbing to lung cancer before we finally gave him enough morphine to put an end to it. Nobody should have to endure such suffering - and I don't think it is "weak" or "selfish" to check out early because of it. Each of us is made differently, with different pain thresholds. Mine is reaching its limit these days...

Good luck to all of you

I do not think that suicide is a cowards way out. Nor do I think people who want to kill themselves are weak. It takes a very brave person to commit to a choice of that magnitude and although I have often wanted to kill myself I am too weak and cowardly to go through with it.
There are alot of people out there who genuinely dont have a way out and life is just too painfull, physically and emotionally. If you have nothing more to contribute to the world and there is nothing this world can give to you then you no longer have a purporse.

Human life is only special to the individual. The world doesnt notice my existance. Hundreds of people die every day. We are just part of this over-populated species. The way we go is how we will be remembered. And I plan to go out with a big big big bang!

I would like to know if there is a link to the alt.suicide.holiday site

I am very upset with my life i don't want to live anymore, there is no one life who can remain with me for ever. please tell me an easiset way to do suicide on my id.

I dont know why you all see this as a easy way out! there is life out there! Enjoy it! Embrace it! The only way for you to get out of this situation is to make your life the way YOU WANT IT TO BE! not by what other people thinks it should be! Its just sad that there are other people out there in this world who are fighting for life, while people like you is looking for the easy way out.

'coward' is a word written by people who have no compassion or understanding. When these people experience the hurt, pain, lonliness and emptiness that I have to endure 24/7 then they will have the right to call me a coward. Having battled for the previous 10 years with depression brought on by a whole lot of trauma no one of my 36 years should have endured I finally had the courage to end it. Taking an overdose of paracetamol and anti-depressants I thought I would slip into a deep sleep never to be awoken. No such luck, found by my brother, I was rushed to hospital for the usual remedies. I'd already been receiving help from a psycologist for 8 months before this attempt and now I've got to see a psychiatrist. So it isn't as if I haven't looked for other avenues out of this despair, but the pain I carry round with me intensifies with every waking moment and I really need to find a way out. Next time I want to be successful and then I won't remain a burden on my family and friends. Please help

I am almost 41 and I look back and about half my life I have been self harming or failing in suidide attempts, I know now that the suicide attempts were mainly for attention, that and depression saw me in and out of hospitals stitching up cuts and stomach pumping, and now I have osteo and rheumatoid arthritis, I am in agony from the minute I wake up till I go to sleep. I think suicide is a personal thing, and you shouldnt judge and say its a cowards way out, for the people who are judging come feel my pain and we will see who is cowardly. To all the young people who are having problems at school or are maybe lonely, or anyone of any age feeling desperate, hey I want you to know that someone out there does care ok and even though I dont want to be here either I am going to stick around for a while longer how about doing the same even if it is just to chat to me, please if you feel suicidal like I do and are not sure dont do it just yet ok, write to me and we will try and live a little longer together.. Love and Light to you all Dan

Oh ok I forgot you might need my email address lol its danlee666@hotmail.com Love and Light

hmm.... for allthose who say life is wonderful and should be lived to it's fullest I say walk a mile in my shoes...or those that are suffering and see life ...if that's what you want to call it as living. It may or may not be selfish but so what? You and the people around 'us' aren't the ones having to live in our skins....are you? No you're not... in the end...we are all selfish. We have to be...it's a necessary part of "life"... you have to eat...breath...sleep...go to the bathroom...and endure you're own personal pain..whatever that may be. I don't know any of you ..nor do you know me. The fact is you never will...and I never will know you. And do you really want to know me...and do I really want to know you? Don't live your life for me...and I can't live my life "life" for you. Living and dying is inevitable. We all do it and time is our enemy...as it were. If someone wants to leave this "world" let them...what skin is it off your back or mine? To be honest..it won't effect me if some of you kill yourself...as harsh as that sounds...and it won't effect you if I kill myself. Which I may do very soon. Why? My own reasons...what do you care? And really why should you care? I don't blame you for not caring. I wish I didnt' know what I do know...and the truth is ...I really don't know what I dont' know...if I did know it...maybe my views would change. But what's the difference....we're all on a proverbial cruise ship that's sailing ever close to the great waterfall ...and it's only a matter of time till the ship sails over the edge.

Each of us has a choice..but do we? Or is it just the illusion of a choice. You're going to die. You know it...but when? I choose mine on my own terms...why wait till the inevitable moment...why wait for ten more years of pain....and continuuing suffering.

If you are reading this and you want to die...I can understand...you are not alone. If I had the means to help you ...and you really wanted the help...I would help you. Why is it such a bad thing to say that? I think it's more crazy to want to live in this world suffering as we all do...day in and day out.

I hate thiz life, i wanna end my life... Pleaze tell me the easiest way to suicide without pain... Thx b4

Help me! Im 15, i hate this life..
Please tell me the harmless method to suicide.. (despair_zzz@yahoo.com)

I am dying of a pain illness, and I would like to end my own life with some respect. Please help me, and my husband to do it the right way so he does not get hurt by this.

Hi. I am very very sad and depressed. I am manic depressive and have post traumatic stress disorder. I have witnessed a murder. A drive-by. My boyfriend was killed in front of me. He saved my life by pushing me out of the way. I had to watch him die.
I have been cutting myself for the past three years now. I tried to kill myself about fifteen times (with no success obviously). I do not like what I have become but all I want is to be with my boyfriend again.

Hi. For a long time now I have decided that it is my desire to leave this world, so please DO NOT lecture, preach, or try to talk me out of it in any way, shape, or form. I am merely looking for a like-minded person (preferably a female) to chat with. If interested, feel free to e-mail me at tsc117@gmail.com.

Thanks.

i feel like im to controlled by my parents im 14 i need help i just want to leave i dont want to live anymore (orick8@msn.com)

I am a marketing creation that was set up with contacts in the jew cyber media. The hits to my youtube video's were not real. The google and youtube jew media just added tens of thousands of hit to the counter to create hype. I have seen my avatar on a few pay per click ads here and there, it has not taken off. Someone told me the truth, that I am being manipulated by my parents. He said my appeal is only to perverts that like to see a young girl of some diminished intellectual capacity that suggests she may be open to molestation and abuse. I'm crying, I want to die. I now have a virtual stalker on youtube who goes by the name or Garsin. I don't like him, I don't know him, he makes out like he is fighting for me, it frightens me. I just want to end it.

hey r u people asking ways to die still alive????//

what's life

Anyone who wants to end their life are stupid and they are all cowards. So what if your going through a bad time in your life, its going to get better just give it some time. you never know what is going to happen in the future and you will never know if you kill yourself. Just think of what your friends and family will think when you kill yourself. They will probably say "wow I didn't know they were that weak". Be strong and live your life to the fullest. It's your life and you can make it anyway you want too. Life is like a rollercoaster. When times are going downhill you know they are going to go up again. People kill themselves over love, money, friendship, school, and so many other things. Just remember that god loves you and wants to see you when the time is right, but if you kill yourself, well, your going to hell. (HAVE FUN burning in hell bitchessssssss)

I am already dieing I suffer of a really painful decease and I don't want to talk about it I just want to know the best way to commit suicide without more pain. I am tired and I don't want to wait 6 more months because every day it becomes more painful. PLEASE HELP!

I have no simpathy of people wanting to comit suicide.

People who really had enough of life commit suicide without even thinking twice, and yet you get people who think about it should i or shouldn't i just for attention....come on guys get a life, you either want to live or you want to die its that simple

If life is so bad and you wana die then there is no need to think, what is there too think about. i bet you, you think about the people you leave behind well sorry people who really had enough dont have time to think about that. It's all about choice people who think suicide make there lives so bitter and sour that that is all they can think about instead of being happy, friendly, outgoing etc. the friendlier you are the more friends you will have it's fact of life, compliment yourself, your friends who ever, make your life worthwhile.

you think you do people, family a favor by commiting suicide, wrong you actually making it worse. Anything is possable. suicidle people dont realize what you getting yourself into, what if you try commit suicide and it doesn't work, which means you end up in hospital, when you get out what are people going to think about you, i bet its just to scare your family for attention, well things might get better or worse either way you are screwed.... keep in mind if you want to do something like suicide make sure it's done properly and you never live again coz some people (eg) new born babies,kids,mother,brothers,sisters,fathers etc would love to live a long life.

I have no simpathy of people wanting to comit suicide.

People who really had enough of life commit suicide without even thinking twice, and yet you get people who think about it should i or shouldn't i just for attention....come on guys get a life, you either want to live or you want to die its that simple

If life is so bad and you wana die then there is no need to think, what is there too think about. i bet you, you think about the people you leave behind well sorry people who really had enough dont have time to think about that. It's all about choice people who think suicide make there lives so bitter and sour that that is all they can think about instead of being happy, friendly, outgoing etc. the friendlier you are the more friends you will have it's fact of life, compliment yourself, your friends who ever, make your life worthwhile.

you think you do people, family a favor by commiting suicide, wrong you actually making it worse. Anything is possable. suicidle people dont realize what you getting yourself into, what if you try commit suicide and it doesn't work, which means you end up in hospital, when you get out what are people going to think about you, i bet its just to scare your family for attention, well things might get better or worse either way you are screwed.... keep in mind if you want to do something like suicide make sure it's done properly and you never live again coz some people (eg) new born babies,kids,mother,brothers,sisters,fathers etc would love to live a long life.

WHO ARE YOU TO PLAY GOD, He is the only one who can give you life and take it away NOT YOU...

Posted by Anon | May 28, 2009 12:21 AM

god doesn't exist.
if he did
why didn't he stop my cousin from sexually assaulting me.
Why doesn't he send a sign of love for those who think about suicide.
I am no coward.
If i was i couldn't hold the gun to my head and pull the trigger.
I cut my wrists to feel the pain i so long for.
I am dead inside.
Waiting for my escape.

I have a physical illness that the doctors have not yet diagnosed. I am bedridden except for taking a shower and going to the doctor both which are physicall excruciating for me. I am unable to drive. I feel like i should be in the hospital but i know the doctors are taking their time and not doing the appropriate tests becuase i have state medical insurance. I feel lucky to be covered under this minimal insurance because i know some people who are deathly ill don't even have that. The only problem now is even though i beleive i finally have a good doctor who can figure this out my body tells me it's to late. There is some major organ damage and i have a feeling i will never be normal and able to get around again. I miss the life i had and feel like there is no sense in continuing this way only to suffer for who knows how long. On the other hand i don't think i have the courage to end my life at this point,even though i have been very close. I would accept death if it were to come to me not by my own hand. I just don't want to die in anguish. I just wish i know the option was there to end it in case the pain became to much to tolerate. What is worse, an existence with suffering or no existence at all. Both are equally as frightening to me. I feel trapped
Feel free to e-mail if you are also house bound or bedridden and can relate to my anguish. nowheregrl1972@yahoo.com

Last thoughts- I'm 38 and I'm glad my son is not sensitive like I am, he'll have a chance in this cold world.. My daughters might lose some of their light, but it would be just as bad as if we divorced.

Hey religious idiots, you fuckers killed off the Indians with diseased blankets and measles sprinkled on babies in the "Holy Water". Your righteous concern- it's another power pose, and it's destructive.. The nature which could have healed the world is mocked and destroyed by your toxic fantasies..

Nobody who is serious about suicide wants sympathy.. They want the pain and rejection to go away. I'll be gone tonight, in 6 hours. I'm using the ocean- kinda sucks cause I "tried" it before but washed up and had to live with the shame.. It also hurt.. However, as I'm permanantly spinal injured and can't work my way out alone, it's my cue to go. Those who were going to help have behaved like lawyers, they cherry pick the people who don't really need help, and my case was too tough..

Why fight so hard when you are resented for not being an easy case who can do all his own work for your credit, by the wife cause I'm not a good lay anymore, for becoming a sullen dad who was always the one establishing routine and ideas about why work is good, and serving as my wifes loyal dumping ground for what she hates, for never having anyone but my little ones know the value of caring, amnd not being cold.. I'm just a charity case on soon to end workers comp. 2 years I couldn't get it together, how many work to keep my pain alive? I remember when I took life on, fearless with hope for others, I'll do the same with death, before my failures erase all I achieved..

so this is it. I'll clean the house, pretend I'm going for a swim, then go deep.. I just want to feel a bit of love on the way down, the way to everything.. With my back it won't take long.

There should be an honoraable way out in our culture, but we all do this in shame. I don't need my wife and 3 kids hating my memory, as I have come to hate myself- although my wife has my eldest turned against me already and the others are sure to follow.. Whatever the case- I was a very good husband and dad, unselfish, thinking of them every time I dreamt for more, I was HAPPY to work for their stuff.. but this is for me, and for everyone else.. I would have donated myself for science or some other noble cause, but thats illegal- the only honor they give us is feeding the economic machine..

1 more listen to the album I liked as a teenager, then I'll go.. The world looks beautiful again, when I forgive myself. My last loving caress from the breezes, from the world which bore me, and to which I surrender my energy..

I hope the species goes to a resource economy, but the math suggests we'll follow game theory back into war, misery, and destruction. The world bankers will process everything for their power and consumption, and all the idiots will pine over michael jackson.. I never talked like this because I knew people needed me to be upbeat, to inspire them.. I believe I did that, and as nature will try to balance things out, I fear this is a drain move... But then we are all natural expressions in our actions,thoughts and intentions. Life was a gift, but why cling to the window of the burning building? Those in that situation, I love you all, try once more- talk with others without pride. As for me I can't wait. I'm at peace knowing I did okay- it's the good you leave behind which matters.. Nothing else..

People who are abused can say something- Chloe, don't ever let your dying thought be "I'm Being A Wasteful Drama Queen".. Get on with life- If your problem was real it would be coming from the self- don't bother people with the victim crap when you can do something about it, did you bother to tell, or did you kind of like it? Forgive and move ahead. Have the courage to help others..

If this is investigated- I'm the guy up in Iceland, or South Africa.. Leave it alone, just assert yourself and help the good people, not just those who manipulate and fake that they need it, while the quiet smile desperately hoping for a reminder of love to return.. Yes, its the ones who fake the smiles that turn the hadest on themselves..

For those in my situation, I am sorry- There's no shame in this, people used to do it all he time.. Just don't leave on a sour note, thats not fair to the living.. Fake something like what I am about to do.. When you go out think of how the sky looked when we were kids..

I've spent the last 2 years pouring all I had left into them- I love them dearly. I hope they don't have what is wrong with me, but generous souls often fall to this... That, I can say, I really hate about nature.. The people who hate you when you're happy, they tend to win, and be loved by women.. The same women who cry for the environment, then marry a real estate developer the first chance they get.. They actually perceive that type of person as smarter, kinder, more loving.. How much $ do people need? When will guys tire of lusting after strangers? That's something I avoided, maybe it made me boring.. What people say they admire, and what they truly desire, are completely different.. Sure they want most others to be good, but they want to be in with the takers...

If anyone bothers to read this try something I loved- Commit to a good persons well being, if you can afford the time/energy.. Typically we're the ones who get drained - and either get sick and die, or decide we want to..

I'm stalling now. See you at the source, lets try to make the world beautiful for each other, that is the only power we have, but it's influence is all we can hope to leave of our perspectives..

I wanted to teach- it was all about programming, I wanted to create art, but nobodies buying art they can't use to sell themselves, I tried to inspire my family as the giver, but the wife and older son saw me as a resource to play, expected, boring, needy...

See past race, but don't allow the ignorant and dangerous to breed irresponsibly either..

People really do not care if you lower your dominance because you care, they generally take what they can, and usually respect only Money and Violence. Somebody should make people aware of this sad fact of life.. We can change it, you know.

Never go the violent route unless people are directly dangerously evil- otherwise you spend eternity suffering the loss of the other you took life from.. Keep parts of the Earth wild- someday we will really need that, and be able to sustain it..

Men, remember that women are cold because they have to have something to give the babies, and in old age and death they will understand that which we gave..

Women, don't act as cavewomen- lose to stupid, wasteful instincts.. Happiness lies in a harmonious live interacting with nature, wildlife, and the earth. Know that sex form an enthusiastic, self respecting woman, is a mans way into your mind and soul, and for some dumb reason we think this is obvious.. It is the same to us as romance and flowers and kindness is to you from an attractive man. Know that your desire for stuff is what makes men behave like shits- Don't believe me, go watch Pretty Woman and think about how it would make your son feel.. The message is just wrong.. The pack mentality justifying it, is wrong..

But woman are also all that men hope to make happy- as they receive and emanate that love.. Teach your daughters that what is attractive sometimes is what kept the species alive, but is what is destroying the Earth as we know it..

i thought being attractive and good would work for us, i know i had the tools, but i couldnt stop hating myself through others.. married half my life, i became boring to her, predictable, injured.. and I could never betray her cause she was the one.. i am lucky for that.

Finally- No Young Person Should Ever Commit Suicide- Most Depressed Teens Find Happiness and forget their depression.. For the people who write stuff like "Why are the suicidal always alive bitching", well, I can assure most are not. I am not one of the drama nerds.. But watch that hate, because when you are down you'll be much quicker to do what I am doing. I know because I amthe same way.

okay, I took 10 percs to relax, and I have 50 more for the beach. Remember the promises you made to yourselves as kids, it wasn't long ago I forgot all mine, but that's alright. Be and let be and all that.

You want the energy back nature, take it, I won't directly generate the misery you seem to feed upon

ok bye everyone i loved amd i appreciated you- death is not the enemy - betraying who you wre is- after a life of not caring where i fit and trying to do what is right i just couldnt anymore, so its time to save myself byreturning and looking back - i did ok

I have a terminally disease and I want a painless way to die with
dignity. I do not want my husband to watch me die for weeks with no hope.

Is there a combination of drugs I can die with out pain. I have access
to most drugs thru Hospice

Thank you for your help

Suicide is one's own choice. Whether someone has never seen help and makes the decision, or if they have tried getting help and it didn't work for them. We all make choices in life and the greatest of all is if you want to keep yours. I've been battling it for ten years and hospitalized more times than I can count on one hand. But who cares? It doesn't matter how you play the game- in the end for every character it's "Game Over." So i'll stop being anorexic and eat what I want because society calling me fat won't matter. I'll still have the same end as everyone else so until then, I'll do what I want.

U people are crazy, dont kill ur self!!!!! U have a life ahead of u and for those who are saying "my lifes a wreck" WELL THEN FIX IT!!!!!!!!!! U think that once your life makes one LITTLE problem u decide to kill ur self! PSYCOS!!!!!!

I write to this forum to seek advice on ways to painlessly end my life. I would like to plan my death, to ensure that I take care of all of the necessary legalities, as well as the logistics in taking my life in a way that enables me to pass to the other side without a big deal.

At 35 years of age, without family responsibilities, have a successful life in the traditional sense of the word, money, material stuff etc. These material possessions are by-products of me trying to beat depression by immersing myself in work, not adding to my happiness or unhappiness.

I have suffered with depression since the age of 12. Trying many things from Medication or 'Therapy', which have been fruitless. My remaining wish is to end my life, upon the completion of the planning for pre and post.

I am not here for a lecture from those opposed to suicide, accept that people make informed decisions about life and death every day.

I write to this forum to seek advice on ways to painlessly end my life. I would like to plan my death, to ensure that I take care of all of the necessary legalities, as well as the logistics in taking my life in a way that enables me to pass to the other side without a big deal.

At 35 years of age, without family responsibilities, have a successful life in the traditional sense of the word, money, material stuff etc. These material possessions are by-products of me trying to beat depression by immersing myself in work, not adding to my happiness or unhappiness.

I have suffered with depression since the age of 12. Trying many things from Medication or 'Therapy', which have been fruitless. My remaining wish is to end my life, upon the completion of the planning for pre and post.

I am not here for a lecture from those opposed to suicide, accept that people make informed decisions about life and death every day.

I am 32 years old and I think of suicide every day. I have made a mess of my life. I have lost my family no fault of theirs. I can't keep a relationship. My best will never be enough. I am too tired to fight anymore.

I am 32 years old and I think of suicide every day. I have made a mess of my life. I have lost my family no fault of theirs. I can't keep a relationship. My best will never be enough. I am too tired to fight anymore.

A lot of people or 'younger people' don't understand the permanent nature of suicide. why do you want to do this? are you really in so much physical and mental pain that ending your one and only existence in this universe is the only answer? have you really tried every method to fight this depression? do you want to feel better or do you like being miserable?.. you really have to look deep inside yourself and ask yourself these questions..if you're doing it out of hatred or spite its pointless...you'll never be able to see the looks on everyones faces who made you miserable. i suffer from depression and every day is exhausting just trying to get myself out of bed. i feel lethargic 24/7 and i constantly feel like shit. i've had reoccurring suicidal thoughts for the past couple years but when you're depressed you don't think clearly. the only reason i chose not to is because i can't even imagine how heartbroken my mom, who has been trying everything to help me with my depression for these last few years would be, and my sister who has been my voice of reason. i can't do that to them. i know, I've been there and its the worst feeling in the world to be pushed to that point. i know everyone says this but it really can't stay like this forever. it can only get better because you're at the lowest. we have to fight this...

p.s don't give up.

god has to be a SADIST to have created a world like this. god and the devil are together hand in hand playing the fuck with our lives, so fuck god, fuck the devil. I wish someone would end this whole fuckin world with a nuclear bomb.

i just can't cope. i'm a bad person. i use drugs to hide it, i can't cope without them. i have been a fake for years, just pretending that everything is o.k. its not. i want to really cause some pain to other people just to show them a little tiny peice of how i feel, but i can't. i am full of hate. hate has taken over, i have tried to be strong. i am a dangerous person. i need to die

Do any of you know what your doing? Don't think about just yourself, think about the people around you your hurting. Make something of your life. Don' throw a pity party for yourself. I bet right now your thinking what would this girl know what I'm going through? Oh trust me, I do. I've tried to commit.

Peter Prentice: You think suicide is cool so you want to do it? Besides the fact you think it's cool, why do you want to?

Seba: Nothing in your life could be worth killing yourself for. Even pain.

Out of Brain: If you want to get rid of everything, make it better.

Ryan: You have so much to live for little man. High school. Dating. Girls. Marriage. You have your whole life ahead. There is no need to end it now sweetie.

Margaret: Wow. Now I can see where your coming from. You think that nothing will ever turn around. But look back on everthing that has happened to you, everything you've overcome. If you can go through all of that then why end it now. If you want to change your life, do it.

Chan: I think since people may think you act so normal that if you told them what you were thinking, they would help you in a heartbeat. You obviously have a lot of people around you that care. Go to them.

Preston: You have so many things going for you. What's so bad that you think you have to end your life right at this second?

Christopher Pratt: If you end your life now, your son won't have a fatherly figure to grow up with in your life. What do you think your wife would have to go through if you did this to yourself. You should go to your doctor and get put on neurontin. My grandmother had chronic pain and I was so tired of her crying because of the pain so I got her put on neurontin and now she is fine. Look into it..please

Firediamond: Email me. spunk_sam@yahoo.com or call me 1-317-385-7172

Zzz: All act of suicide harmful. They might not harm you, but they harm the ones around you who love you. Your 15. Live a little. Instead of hurting yourself, you should sing, write music or learn an instrument. Trust me it helps.

Grey's girl: If you kill yourself, your not only never going to be with him, you didn't honor his name like everyone person should do for someone that has died that was close to them. I know that right now it feels like none of this pain will ever go away. But you need to go out. Go out with some friends. Start out small. Do something that three years ago you would have never done. You have the power to make yourself better.

Cassie: We've all been there. And it sucks a lot. Whydon't you propose something to your parents. You do this and you get to go to a party or bowling or the movies. If you let this get you down. Then once you get older a million more things will control your life.

I love life: You are seriously idiotic. You have no clue what any of them are going through. All your doing is proving them right about all the stupid people in the world. Your what, some stupid little 14 or 15 or 16 year old that thinks they know everything. Once you have terrible problems, you'll understand. Till then, keep your trap shut!

Chloe: If you think God doesn't exist? Where do you think we came from?

Someone: Your just another one of these people that has had everything handed to them so you think you know everything. Grow up.

Tom: You can change everything that has happened to you. Just try. I know you don't want to. But you have everything to live for. You can have an amazing life if you just try. Don't ever give up!

To all: If I didn't respond to you, I'm sorry. I will always be here for all of you. My email is spunk_sam@yahoo.com. My number is 317-385-7172. When you need help, contact me. I'm always here.

Ashley, "your only existence in this universe" How do you know? Nobody does!
It can only get better when you at the lowest? Believe me, when you think your at the lowest, you're not. You will find out that you can get lower and lower; lower than you ever think is possible. And than you wish you were back at the point from before.
For decades I have been thinking with every little thing that this might be it, this might help me to get out of the hole; only to find out that it doesn't and pushes you even further down. Now I am at the point that I don't hope or think; I just let things go, because it will never happen.

Sometimes I start believing in reincarnation: there must be a reason to deserve a live like this.

I can't believe you guys are all giving up on life. Everyone experiences shite times in their lives when you feel that nothing else can go wrong, but the challenge is to work through these obstacles and get stronger. Unless you have a serious terminal illness, there is no excuse for suicide, it's a cowards way out.
You may feel that you will be free from pain, but you will give that pain to your friends and relatives for the rest of their lives, it's so selfish. they will forever wonder if they could have done more to help and may blame themselves.
I don't believe in God, but I do believe in spirits and I think that unless you resolve your problems in life before you die, you will not move onto a peaceful plane. Ghosts and spirits that are experienced by people are often found to have had died an unnatural death.
My advice is DON'T DO IT! There is ALWAYS someone out there that can help you, if you think there isn't, you just haven't looked hard enough.
No matter how rubbish you think life is, it can always get better, a lot of people who have tried and failed to commit suicide, turn their lives around and are glad they gave life another chance.
Good luck with life.

I have to get this out.

I left my boyfriend after 4 years 4 months ago.
We have a beautiful baby girl together shes 2.
First guy after my ex I have sex with gives me Herpes.
I can never get rid of this, no one will ever touch me again:(
AND Its now never possible to try working things out with my ex ever again.
I can no longer enjoy 1 of the things i love most in life because of this.
I feel so lost, this has broken me completly...
If im not careful I can pas it to my baby girl when i change her diapers or anything else.
Shes better off with her dad I guess then with a mom thats completly shattered and has no use to no one but taking up space.

Since i left my inncome is now very low since im alone.
I cant pay all my bills, I cant afford to eat or do anything. BUT I make sure my babygirl have everything she needs.
Its soon xmas, and I have nothing! I dont want anything I just want to be left alone to die.

Dont know why Im telling you this, dont think theres anything you can say to change my mind I just had to tell someone:(

- Emty Angel -

I'm in 2nd year university in a justice program. A good relationship well..long distance one and I really don't see the point of going on. I'm sorta sick of being on the tight ropes of everything really. Its not that I can't handle it, because I am, I just don't want to continue to do so. There are others in the world who probably do have it worse but honestly, do any of you care for those you don't know? Anywho I have a dumb mom who makes up excuses for everything, school where profs are not reliable. No father since he is past away. this long distance gf of mine is loyal but really slow and can't remember things like my own birthday. What is important to her is clearly does not involve me. Can't really get a job because my references are outdated and If there was an easy painless pill that could end it, probably take it before going to sleep,I'd do it. I don't hate the world or its people, I just don't like how I'm unable to surpass it since I'm always stuck underneath it all.

your all a bunch of pussies. if you have family know that will not get any sympathy after you kill yourself. you will just leave your loved ones sad and angry. a family member of mine killed herself a few weeks back and i will assure you we are all very fustrated and hurt after what she has done. instead of selfishly killing yourself why dont you do something good like working for charity for example. seeing as you are ready to throw your life away you may aswell commit yourself to helping people who are in need of help.

stop feeling sorry for yourself because nobody else does. you dont get sympathy when you look for it. people do not want to hear your war stories; everybody goes through shit in life so stop being so weak.

please help me. im so sick of everything and everyone. i just wish i was dead. email me.

help feel like shit have dun for a long time just wantit to end

I have stumbled upon this page and continued reading the many comments on the page as well and couldnt help but want to comment on many of them.

Im going to comment on both side of the fence and if I say things I shouldnt i apologize now.

First of all Suicide is a form of weakness however I think when people have no safe haven be it famliy friends etc...it seems the easy way out. I have contemplated many times. I still ask my girl if I can get a handgun just to have in the house. I may wake up one morning and just say...F it im done. Most times just the thought of leaving people I care about stops me. Again, why am I still putting everyone elses feelings before my own?

Some of the comments on here are from people that are just plain ignorant or maybe went through this and have survived, not pulled the trigger ya know. I have head trips most days of the week, I dont expect people to listen to my "WAR STORIES" because they are MINE...my decisions in life, my mistakes and misfortunes,though I still feel like it would be better off me not being around.

The one thing I always hated is..."If you kill yourself your going to hurt everyone around you that loves you" listen people unless your in these shoes you have no idea. Unless you have headspace so F'd up you have no clue what its like. But if people really loved me....Why do I still feel this way. Maybe they are not good enough, maybe im not good enough. The decision is still mine, regardless, Like all the other decisions that led me to even think of hurting myself.

I think its more selfish for these people to continue thinking of themselves when my brain makes me want to do things the "NORM" thinks I shouldnt do. Parents, Teachers, Friends, the F'n bible...

So first of all if your on a website where people are reaching out to each other, and your not sympathetic enough to lend an ear....go download porno, its morons like you that make people feel the way they do. But you wouldnt get it...you wouldnt understand, I do applaud you though for trying to stick your chest out and make people believe that they can just snap out of whatever f's them up.

For all the people like me, I can only say that Music/Poetry/writing has helped me. It may not help you, however I play guitar, I scream when I need to scream, and cry when I need to cry..and im a 31 year old man. find solace in something that keeps your mind off the hurt. The only way you can be honest without hurting people around you is to write your thoughts down, be honest with your self. You will be surprised what comes out. You will never be able to make others understand what your going through. As long as you understand whats hurting you, whats eating you alive, you have a better chance at fixing it.

Anyone who tells you your feelings are void, invalid, are shallow. Simply Put. Dont try to make them understand, just find your outlet, there has to be something that helps you not think about it as often as you would normally.

I also want to offer up help, if any of you need to chat, feel free to email me, sometimes support systems work I guess, Just never let anyone tell you your wrong about how you feel inside..they dont know...

Good luck to all of you, Im sure you will make it through, smile a bit more, even if its fake, just smile.

Vinnie C.

I've not died

I didn't have the courage to kill myself by using harmful methods
I am coward

but, let me tell all of you
you are not alone...
some or maybe all of us experience hard times and difficult life

maybe for some of us(especially for those who are sensitive and weak), it is extremely hard

But, we can't do anything...
that's life...

I really wanna die, but I can only wait...
I'm struggling to survive even though it's hard

feel free to chat with me and share your thought... (despair_zzz@yahoo.com)

I think overdose on sleeping pills is the best and harmless way of dying

If you have money then spend it for buying drugs
it'll make you happy and you'll die slowly

isn't my ideas great?

I'll try to get some more ways ^^
Committing Suicide is our choice and I think it's the best way to finish all of your fucking problems and this fucking difficult life

GOD DOESN'T EXIST
if He does, why doesn't He help our fucking problems???

Keep on living = strong
Commit suicide = clever