Monthly Archives: April 2004

do you remember cathartic processing?

I interviewed a person i know a few days ago about hir blog/journal. S/he talked about writing as a form of cathartic processing. S/he got to write down hir thoughts and share them with hir friends who would know when to comment and when to just let hir process. At one point, s/he looked at me and said: remember when you used to blog for that?

Wow… i really did use to process unfinished thoughts, personal frustrations, frameworks i was trying to construct… all in my various web journals. I didn’t have to defend myself to strangers; my friends were totally constructive in their critiques. I didn’t need to remember to be formal; i was allowed to be half-baked.

Now blogging is this psycho addiction. I’m aware of having an audience of unknowns, but trying to put on blinders just to write. I want the cathartic processing, but i want to share some of my findings/ideas with the world. They don’t both fit into the same forum, even though i try. I write so that i don’t lose track of thoughts. Yet, i am only able to deal with comments and people on occasion. I struggle to find the appropriate voice. Another friend told me that my blog tended to have a lot of content, personalized. I’m not sure if that’s good or bad. Then again, i was told that my thesis looked like a stream of consciousness writing. It was.

As i interview people about their regrets, i start to wonder if i’ll have my own. Will i regret blogging? I try not to live in regrets, or rather, i try to forget that which i might regret. Yet, is forgetting possible?

beware the steam vac

I’d always seen the steam vacs at Safeway. Thus, when we decided to do a massive house cleaning yesterday, i decided to make certain that all of the carpets and rugs got a thorough cleaning. We have a no-shoe policy in our house so i figured it would just help get rid of Marble fur and random dust. I was so not prepared for the color of the water in a matter of moments. The amount of dirt that came out of those rugs was mindblowing. Where on earth did it come from? Is it from before my time? If you think that your house is clean and tidy, go do a steam vac on your rugs. Me oh my.

Postal Service Mocks Gmail

This evening, my roommate wrote a mock USPS launch announcement to highlight why Gmail might seem foreign to those who view their email as a metaphor for the real thing:

The United States Postal Service has announced the launch of an automated service that ensures its customers receive advertising material directly related to their interests. No more junk mail!

Now the advertisements you receive free each day — courtesy of the trusted USPS — will be automatically selected to match keywords found in your correspondences. And it’s all privacy-friendly!

Newly installed robots will open every letter handled by the USPS, read its contents, reseal the envelope, and send the recipient — free of charge — third-party material describing goods and services directly related to the scanned content of the letter.

…(cont’d)

masculine anger

I pulled into the parking lot at BestBuy. It’s a tight squeeze and i was pulling into a parking lot as the driver in Mercedes SUV threw his door open, into me; i put on the breaks but already the door has made impact. Given the SUV, the only damage is on my car. There’s a couple in the Mercedes. The driver jumps out and starts yelling at me. I’m totally taken aback, shaking. The passenger gets out and pushes away the driver after i already yell back that i’m calling the cops. The passenger and i talk, i give over driver’s license info and we exchange insurance info. I can’t fully guarantee what happened. I remember seeing the door opening as i pulled in to the space, not as it being opened. But alas, all damage to me; none to Mercedes. I decide not to deal with it, given that the only reason that my car doesn’t have any dents on it is because it has all new exterior panels from a multi-car collision a year ago (heavy raining + over-egotistical SUV going 75 down 101). But i was still all shaken up, not by the bullshit SUV, but because of the asshole SUV driver.

As i was chewing on what really bothered me, i realized how ill-equipped i am to handle masculine anger in a state of nerves. I’ve managed to acquire a lot of masculine traits over the years, in part as a coping mechanism. But i’ve never been able to master masculinity when i’m torn to shreds emotionally. All of my deep-seated femininity comes to the surface. For some, it’s so bloody natural – that masculine survival technique of absolute anger and dominance in the state of panic. I turn into a mushy ball of OMG what happened?!?!? Masculine anger allows all the blame to be externalized, while the feminine OMG internalizes everything. No doubt the driver spent the rest of the day damning me for being in the way, even though the SUV suffered no harm.

I’m often reminded that my femininity gets me a lot of attention, even in the working world. I’m not going to dispute this, but i do know that my lack of complete masculine coping mechanisms means that i’m never prepared to handle the privilege that i’m afforded. That said, i’m not sure that i want to even acquire all of the masculine coping tools. I don’t know.. it feels so confusing.

[Note: i’m addressing traits in a masculine/feminine form based on the gender performance with which they’re associated. One of the big misnomers about gender performance is that it is linked to sex. Masculine anger may be embodied by a male individual, but it may also be embodied by a female individual. Culturally, we are taught to follow male/masculine and female/feminine sex/gender role models. But this is not universally built into us, nor something that all of us can comfortably learn to do.]

The Dark Side of Numbers: The Role of Population Data Systems in Human Rights Abuses.

Many people have heard me tell an anecdote that i learned while living in Holland: At the turn of the century, the Dutch government collected mass amounts of data about its citizens with good intentions. In order to give people proper burials, they included religion. In 1939, the Nazis invaded and captured that data in less than 3 days. A larger percentage of Dutch Jews died than any other Jews because of this system.

Well, i’d been searching for a citation for a while. Tonight, i remembered to ask Google Answers and in less than an hour, had a perfect citation:

The Dark Side of Numbers: The Role of Population Data Systems in Human Rights Abuses. Social Research, Summer, 2001, by William Seltzer, Margo Anderson

The essay is even better than my anecdote and i truly believe that anyone in the business of doing data capture should be required to read this.

why privacy issues matter… to me

why privacy issues matter… to me

Bloody Gmail (and the scarier A9) has me back to thinking about my love/hate relationship with privacy issues and my deep need to unpack the term and insert the issues of vulnerability into the discussion. Privacy is a loaded term. I’ve heard way too many people talk past one another thinking that they’re both talking about privacy issues. It’s a slippery discussion and i leave it to Dourish to fully flesh out why. But i do think that there are important issues that must be teased out in order to have a conversation about privacy, vulnerability or any of our data woes.

Key privacy-related questions

Given XYZ situation, i ask myself two key privacy-related questions:
1) Does XYZ make any person or group of persons feel icky? Who? Why?
2) Are there any rational scenarios of how XZY can be abused by the creators, potential hackers, or ill-advised governments/coups?

[Note: these are my questions for myself and thus i define rational, a notably arbitrary definition that falls under the “i know it when i see it” category. The key anecdote that i keep in my head is that at the turn of the century, Holland (and other countries) collected religion as part of their census data. In 1939, that data was horribly horribly abused. This may not have appeared to be a rational situation in the 1920s, but it is in my scope of the possible now.]

Reasons for the ickiness factor

First, i address the ickiness factor. I immediately disregard any groups that involve the paranoid from my list of ickiness contenders that must be addressed. I do not exclude the marginalized. Often, the ‘why’ answer for this group has to do with heightened walls around what is normative and what is not. Given that i’m politically all-in-favor of challenging normative values, i recognize their plight and pay special attention to it, albeit reflexively so.

Of the groups who fall into the ickiness reaction zone, i’ve identified a few reasons why there’s usually a reaction to XYZ:

  • XYZ makes a someone feel at risk to situations of theft, notably identity theft. This is usually from people who have experienced identity theft, a growing group.
  • XYZ asserts values or normative boundaries that feel uncomfortable. Example: you tend to be hyper-aware of demographic requests when your race/religion/sexuality/gender are not listed; thus, you feel invaded in ways that you wouldn’t feel if you fit the mold perfectly.
  • XYZ opens the possibility of having material available to an undesired audience. This is a control issue. Most frequently, the undesired audience consists of known individuals with whom the individual has a relationship but that relationship does not include the sharing of material required by XYZ.
  • XYZ makes information available to authorities with power over the individual. This is not simply a fear of the paranoids. This is a rational concern of many people who reside in countries whose governments have abused their power and individuals who work in companies whose bosses have regulated employee’s behavior.

Vulnerability embedded in ickiness

This ickiness feeling in relation to ‘privacy’ is what i called vulnerability. Something that XYZ has done has made people feel vulnerable to potentially abusive strangers, cultures and cultural norms, known others, and institutions with power. I am particularly interested in rational constructions of vulnerability, particularly amongst those who have felt the fire. We already live in a culture of fear – i’m not interested in magnifying it.

Outside of those who live in a fear for fear’s sake mentality, there’s a pretty consistent set of patterns regarding vulnerability:
– New situation raises people’s vulnerability concerns; walls go up
– Situation appears to cause no harm; walls start lowering
– Incentives are used to encourage participation; walls lower faster
– Vulnerability comes to forefront with resultant situation; walls spike

Point two is where the concerns slumber and why civil rights activists are essential. People’s innate vulnerability concerns definitely subside over time. Incentives definitely work, particularly when the consequences are not high.

While you may not give any demographic information just because, you will probably give it for the chance of winning a Porsche. For most people, this isn’t an issue of high vulnerability and there are low consequences so they don’t need a strong incentive. Take it to the next level. What will it cost to have a bot track your web surfing? Many people will do it… but the necessary incentive is usually more than dreadful odds at winning a Porsche. Take it to the next level. What will it take for you to be willing to turn your personal web surfing data over to your boss, lover or parents? Surfed any porn lately? The incentive (or, more likely, extreme guilt/requirement) must be high because the consequences of having to face your actions are much higher, particularly if you weren’t prepared to turn over your data to those with power over you. Note that for many people, fear of turning over this information to known undesired audience is far more threatening than having to turn this over to institutions; this is not the case in certain countries where vulnerability to dreadful governments runs much deeper than vulnerability to known individuals. A lot has to do with power and ability to execute enforcement over undesired behavior.

Why we need civil rights activists, legal changes and architects

Let me dig out of this hole and return to the civil rights activists. As people’s concerns lower, they’re willing to tolerate much more invasive access to data because they only see the incentives and they don’t see the consequences. This is rational. We tend to operate on local, not meta levels in everyday life. The role of the civil rights activist is to go meta and deal with first point #2 – can any rational abuse of data be expected? Their role is to look at the larger picture and protect people from engaging in localized decisions that might harm the larger picture.

There are usually two approaches that said activists take:
1) Try to educate the masses.
2) Try to change XYZ from happening through any means possible.

Education is nice and it works locally through social networks, but i genuinely do not believe that privacy education (which usually works by inserting fears) will overcome the incentives. Furthermore, the incentives will be increased and living in a culture of fear sucks; even Americans have started to ignore the bloody terrorist warning color markers. Of course, a moment of super-fear and then its slow decline to disregard always puts people on greater guard than originally. But i wouldn’t want the education camp to educate by creating situations that instigated super-fear. Leave that to governments.

I should clarify… i’m not entirely opposed to education; i just don’t believe that it’s the solution. Let’s keep it in mind as the social norms part of Lessig’s 4 point regulation scheme – valuable as a contributor, but not effective as the sole approach.

Then there’s the systemic changes. Going with Lessig, there are three types of systemic changes that can be made – the market, the law and the architecture. Personally, i think that the market is the reason that things are being moved in this direction and thus, i think that they’re a bit impossible to swing, so i believe that more effective approaches can be made on the law and the architecture side. Architecture is a bit more obvious, except that it is inherently tied into the market (or government). That kinda leaves law. And law continued to become more fubared. One excuse is that it is in bed with the market. Another excuse is that it’s fending off the paranoids.

The reality, i believe, ties into how law negotiates social norms. I wish i remember the details, but i remember learning once that social practices are often enough to affirm laws. In other words, if a law and the social practices are primarily in cahoots, it is unlikely that the law will change. It is only when there are significant differences that change is likely to occur. In other words, if people are tolerant of invasive practices, why regulate against them?

This is where i start to believe in the education branch of the civil rights movement. The key shouldn’t be to make people see the world differently, but stall them enough that they don’t assimilate to problematic breaches of privacy so that laws can be changed. Of course, i don’t know how to do this and thus, i suspect that it will take extreme conditions of masses feeling vulnerable to upset the law structure. (It is for this reason that Europe is much slower about opening up privacy… they remember WWII.)

The opportunity for designers and why i’m involved

Bring this back to me. From my perspective, a lot of the architectural decisions that induce vulnerability emerge from naivety, not poor intention. I genuinely believe that many creators really meant to do the right thing. The problem is that their construction of how to do the right thing is about privacy, not vulnerability. They only imagine how to address the data, not how to address people’s relationship with the data. The approaches are fundamentally about creating control or transparency. I’ve never found anyone who really thought through the implications of having all of the data in the first place. And most designers don’t realize the cultural norms that they insert into a system. Also, control is really really hard when people are trying to manage an external representation of their information. These systems insert new architectures: persistence, searchability, lurkers, etc. Control doesn’t work when people don’t know how to operate the controls. As for transparency, i am horrified by most people’s reading of Brin. Universal transparency will only heighten vulnerability, particularly that on a local level. It is not a solution for most of the situations that i’m concerned with.

So, as i see it, i have two roles as an activist on this issue:
– Educate people to conceptualize vulnerability and go through the exercise of thinking about who a design might affect, how, and why. Encourage them to minimize vulnerability in their design, not simply protect privacy.
– Work directly in domains that are all about vulnerability management and dive deep into the design issues with a conscientious perspective trying to maximize the protections afforded to users.

Dear me that was a rant…

GMail – the good, the bad and the ugly

First, i can’t help but laugh every time i hear the name G-Mail. It’s really the g dash that gets me. I spent years working on a site called the V-Spot. It was explicitly supposed to be directed down there. Well, G- to me automatically signifies the G-Spot. So every time i login, i giggle.

People truly have their panties in a bunch over G-Mail and this *kills* me. My favorite, as noted by master Heer, is that a California Senator is drafting legislation to stop Google. My roommate and i, who met when we were running a workshop on privacy, had a grand ole conversation about G-Mail today. Here’s where i stand.

On a technical level, Google is not doing anything more than any other free-mail site. They are searching through your email for keywords using automated robots only; spam filters on Hotmail and Yahoo do the same thing. The difference is what they do with that information. While spam filters just move your messages to a different directory, Google calculates a metric in which to automatically present you with ads. (For those who haven’t seen the ads, unlike banner ads, they’re uber small and so not invasive; in fact, i couldn’t find them at first.) By default, the ads are given to you and assuming you ignore them, the client knows nothing about you. If you click, it’s your prerogative and i still haven’t figured out what all ends up being sent. But Master Heer is correct – the cookies shit that Hotmail/Yahoo leave behind are *far* more invasive and you can’t get out of them simply by not clicking.

So, on a technical level, i don’t think that poorly of G-Mail. Then, there is the social level. Once again, Google has made me smack my hand to my forehead and scream up, praying to the goddesses to send them a few socially-minded people.

The hysteria should be a first good clue. It doesn’t matter that it’s less technologically invasive – it’s a fucking sociological terror. It makes you *FEEL* invaded, used, vulnerable. At least with banner ads, you can’t make any connections between the ad and your messages. You don’t feel icky. Of course, everyone felt icky when Amazon.com started announcing “Hello, danah” on their front doorstep. There’s a slight similarity here… Both Amazon and Google are making the fact that they have your data transparent to you, reminding you that you’re being watched. Both are using your data to sell you something. The difference is that you go to Amazon to shop… you go to Google to personally communicate. And you don’t want to feel invaded in that process. No one wants the feeling of Big Brother sitting around. And it doesn’t matter if that’s not true. If people _feel_ that way, it sucks. This is the point of a Panopticon. (If you don’t get this, read Bentham’s “The Panopticon Writings”… or, since that’s out of print, try “Discipline and Punish” by Foucault – a must read.)

A friend of mine at the EFF gave me a perfect example of why this makes people feel gross. Imagine that you’re talking about a sensitive topic with a loved one… Imagine that you’re talking about abortion or adoption. Can you imagine the ads that would come up and how you would feel? ::cringe::

My frustration is that people are talking about G-Mail as a privacy issue. This word is super super loaded (right Paul?). This isn’t a privacy issue. This is a vulnerability issue. This is an issue of how people _feel_ not what is actually going on and how it differs from other services. The fact that this feels more invasive is all that matters. If Google thinks that they can educate users, they’re probably in for a big surprise.

Note: That said, i truly believe that lots of people will sign up for G-Mail anyhow. Google appears far more trustworthy than Yahoo or MS. 1 Gig is a super incentive. And i’d bet that everyone screaming foul has their own domain, doesn’t use freemail and doesn’t get that most of the world will give up all of their data for the chance of winning a Porsche. That doesn’t make it right… and i truly hope that Google considers what it’s doing to its brand by this move. While it won’t impact the sign-up rates, i believe that the grossness will affect later inventions and diminish the “do no evil” tagline at Google.

Note 2: I’m definitely with Kevin that there are still too many outstanding questions. (Some of his have been answered here.)