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November 29, 2003

Buying and Selling the Little Black Book

Somehow, i failed to blog that Esther Dyson has a great article on the YASNS sphere.

Can you count your friends? Better yet, can you organize them in a database? There's a lot of buzz about a new breed of software tools that can help people manage their contacts -- or, to make it sound more serious, leverage their social capital.

It's an educated warning to developers, investors. She brings up brilliant challenges to the hype

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it's just cultural...

Jill has a great entry on how Europeans don't understand why Americans don't text. The technology is there, so what's the problem? [The comments on this one are fantastic!]

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irritated beyond belief

..rant..

It was annoying when Friendster was slow. I got over my sighs when Friendster went offline. I can even deal with Bulletin Board messages going down every once in a while. But, this has me outright angry:

Profile is unavailable

Your connection to this person is temporarily unavailable. Please try again in a few moments.

Every time i try to surf to someone; every time i try to bookmark someone; every time i try to figure out who a person is that sent me a message... Every time i get that. So, i have to sit there and reload, reload, reload until i get annoyed and quit. The problem is that i'm trying to write notes down on "configuring the user" wrt Friendster and i need to be able to get to the primary text for analysis. Thus, i'm bloody pissed.

It's one thing to have slow servers... it's another thing to make a technical nightmare out of something that was working. I don't think that i've ever so actively watched as a piece of software degrades so consistently over time. Classic software engineering problem. Throwing more coders, more money and more hardware at something dreadfully broken and already patched doesn't work. Even Macromedia knew went to re-write Director. And it wasn't even this broken! ::steam::

Tell me, Nielson, is this impacting the return user numbers as much as i'm hearing it is? I know no one who is willing to surf through this many barriers.

../rant..

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friendster by hand

Last week, David Weinberg blogged about Friendster by hand. In order to explain why Friendster makes no sense, he describes a Friendster scenario that is laughable when translated to real life.

His post made me think of a paper that i wrote a few years back called Sexing the Internet. It is really common for us to introduce ourselves to people in real life through a series of rituals. At the core, you're asking "what do we have in common?" but to do so, you ask where the person is from, who they might know that you might have in common, what the person does, etc. You are trying to find common ground. This type of behavior is easily translated to the digital world and even a query so simple as A/S/L is about more than the questions "age? sex? location?" At the core, you're asking if you have enough culturally common ground to speak and hopefully the answer will provide you with fuel for a pick-up line as exciting as "Oh, i lived in Boston once!"

The thing is that the ritual of finding common ground is not so much about the answer as much as it is about the pattern of asking/responding. When we create profiles, we privilege the answer. This makes the response all the more awkward. Suddenly, "Oh, i lived in Boston once!" translates from trying to find common ground to "i've stared at your profile and i think you're hot but we have absolutely nothing in common and i have nothing interesting to say so i'm going to react to your location and hope that you're so desperate that you'll respond positively to my sketchy pick-up line that's even more offensive because i appear to be stalking you."

Reacting to a profile is just 10x more socially odd than small talk. And unfortunately, the profile itself takes away one's ability to engage with the standard "what do we have in common" questions. Thus, the lurker gets that far and then they have to find something meaningful to say without the ice breaker. Given this, it's such a miracle that profile-based dating ever works.

Of couse, that's the trick, right? It only works when both people are actively looking or when one person brings something brilliant to the table that goes far beyond small talk.

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November 28, 2003

as we may think

I'm re-reading "As We May Think" with a careful eye in preparation for exams and this time, a quote stuck with me that i think is really important given some conversations i've been having lately:

His excursions may be more enjoyable if he can reacquire the privilege of forgetting the manifold things he does not need to have immediately at hand, with some assurance that he can find them again if they prove important.

On one hand, this assumes that perfect memory is always valuable. Perhaps "the privilege of forgetting" allows us to not face the nitemares or other elements of our imperfect lives that limit our ability to move forward and live. I think of the people that i know who cannot forget the negative. What would it be like to always have it on hand? Would you always play it in a masochistic kind of way? Perhaps forgetting certain things is the only way to evolve.

I will never forget the monks who came to visit me when i was younger. They spent a week building a beautiful work of sand art only to destroy it upon completion. Sometimes, life is about the ephemeral process, not any precise moment or end result.

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NYTimes -> Friendster requests

The NYTimes says that i have 278 Friendster friends. The thing about this number is that i actually know all of them and only 3 of them have i never spent extensive time with in RL (research friends who i have had deep interactions with online, but not offline). Most of these people share significant bonds with me and i've been pretty vigilent about sticking to the "desired" Friendster behavior in this way. (Basically, i have no desire to be killed since i need this account for research.)

I actually maintain multiple accounts. One of them, with my real name, is not linked to anyone. I created it in case old friends wanted to find me. Ironically, all of the requests to that account have been subjects, people who have answered my survey or others that i don't know at all. Since the NYTimes article came out, i've received over a dozen Friendster requests from people who i don't know at all (in addition to the emails of people asking me to be their friend and the 1 request via my used Friendster account).

Frankly, given this, i'm amazed that anyone can think that Friendster is an accurate portrayal of social networks. To many of these people, i'm just another name in the paper, one that's known to have a large network. Thus, they link to me. I'm the perfect candidate to expand people's networks, right? So strange.

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seeing love play out

My friend C is madly in love with this boy D. C lives in NY; D lives in Santa Cruz. When Thanksgiving was being organized, C couldn't come out but everyone invited D anyhow, wanting to get to know him better. It was great - he's a sweetheart and *perfect* for C. The two of them have this great relationship where they connect on so many levels and the treat the world like a playground. It's so awe-inspiring.

C decided that she must see him so she arranged something perfect. Another friend of ours put together a set of missions for D to complete, running around San Francisco on a treasure hunt to find clues that would finally lead him to a home where C would be waiting, having flown in immediately following her turkey dinner.

I spent the turkey evening with D, hanging out and talking and it was sooo refreshing. His love for C just overflows from within him. But things in the mission plans got a bit screwed up. His mission was supposed to be found in one place, but it was mistakenly placed elsewhere. Thus, he didn't know the details of his mission. I was supposed to drop him off at a friend's house last night but that friend passed out so i took him home to my couch (and my book collection, which he dove into immediately). I woke up at 1, knowing that the mission was supposed to start then. I started preparing to take him back to the original location, hoping to find clues for how the mission would start. But behind the scenes, one friend had taken to mission instructions to the house where D was supposed to sleep last nite. That friend hurried them over to my place.

When i gave D his mission, he looked at me and was like "Are you all in on this?" I laughed and told him that all of our friends adore him and we wanted him to be part of the family and this was his initiation. It's funny how much we'll all do to support their love and passion. Off he went, seeking his mission... by now, he's found his love waiting for him. How perfect!

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nielsen data on Friendster

In their latest report on Friendster, Nielsen/Netratings reports that average theFriendster user (who logs in) spends nearly 2 hours per day on Friendster, but that they are not yet up at competitive levels with other dating services regarding number of unique viewers.

Anyhow, fascinating data. I truly wonder what Friendster looked like over time. Is the average user spending more time on Friendster than in June? Is the percentage of people who return changing? Are earlier users not loggging in as much? So many interesting data questions...

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visualizing the internet

Check out the Opte Project:

This project was created to make a visual representation of a space that is very much one-dimensional, a metaphysical universe. The data represented and collected here serves a multitude of purposes: Modeling the Internet, analyzing wasted IP space, IP space distribution, detecting the result of natural disasters, weather, war, and esthetics/art. This project is free and represents a lot of donated time, please enjoy.

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what motivates people to be mean?

So, i just checked email today (oh dear me). There were so many fun notes from friends and from folks that i don't yet know - silly congrats, intriguing questions, business proposals, etc. It'll take me forever to sort out my email, but it was still such a nice little moment to be thankful for. Of course, i can't help but emotionally react to the one cruel email:

Subject: sociologist?

Dear 'Ms.' Boyd,

I would certainly agree that you are a geek among sociologists, so-called, or maybe just simply a geek. And a Yupster of course. Have you ever read any real sociologists, of which Max Weber is arguably the paradigm? Ever study Nietzsche, where all serious modern discourse begins, if not ends? (There is Heidegger, of course.)

A rebel from Lancaster PA might explain a lot. You and the people you allegedly study should "get a life," it would seem.

(Try some Joan Osborne rather than Ani Defranco -- all of you spaceshots spell your names wrong, it would seem, or have ones that should be dumped at least: Shulamith Firestone?)

Ed W. - PhD., Chicago; Dok. Rer. Nat., Freiburg im Breisgau [that's in Bavaria, btw]

First, there's no doubt that i raise my eyebrows about being called a sociologist. Sure, many of the tools that i currently use for studying Friendster come from sociology (and i've even drawn from all 3 aforementioned philosophers in various arguments i've made). Still, i think that my advantage in the academic sphere is that i draw from such a variety of methods and theories and come up with new ways to bridge them all together. That said, i never take issue with people labeling me as a sociologist (or an anthropologist or even a computer scientist) even though that doesn't quite describe what i do. Still, people need a category.

But aside from that point, i just don't understand what motivates someone to read a profile and write a scathing note to the person profiled in an attempt to discredit her. What satisfaction does this man derive from the knowledge that this note got through? What is so offensive about such a profile? Is it not valid enough because it is not written in discourse speak or littered with references to academics that most of the audience would not recognize? In my many conversations wtih Michael, i constantly referenced different academics, explaining what their foundational contributions were, but i totally understood that he had no reason to publish them. But it's clear that this man took the time to reference what i present digitally in order to write this note.

It reminds me of what a friend of mine once told me... he said that you finish your PhD when you hate your advisor, you hate your topic, you hate your life, you hate everything. Apparently, this man never stopped hating. So weird.

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November 27, 2003

expounding on architectures

The NYTimes briefly references how i relate properties of an environment to notions of architecture and i thought i'd expound on this since folks have asked. First, these ideas are based on language used by Lawrence Lessig when discussing four points of regulation in "Code": market, law, social norms, and architectures.

So much of how we structure our social interactions is dependent on our understanding of an architecture. In the physical world, this element is constant. There are certain properties of the physical reality that allow us to assume certain social norms. Without technology, i assume my conversation is ephemeral. I can visually and audibly determine who overhears me. That said, generations of fiction have been created out of the problems with this assumption... what if the walls are listening? what if someone is in a secret passage way and can see you? what if?. But in a truly dialectic form, those questions only emerge because the majority of time, you understand who can see/hear you.

Everything changes online. The architectures of the digital world are constantly shifting and being redeveloped. Technological determinists tell us to get over it: everything is public. But the digital public is so conceptually different than the physical public. People don't yet know how to operate in a space where everything is persistent, searchable, etc. More importantly, we're engaging with people *now* and can't even imagine what new architectures will form 10 years from now that will repurpose our current presentation into the future in a way that is quite different than we expect... even in the "public web."

This is why Friendster intrigues me. Friendster is an example of that shifting architecture. The majority of users on Friendster don't have blogs (or journals) and aren't really present on the web. They are the Internet users who thrive on searching the web and using email. Thus, they are naively negotiating what it means to put up public data. They are forced to face some of the questions about how shifting architectures impact their presentation of self.

At the same time, Friendster also shows how you cannot take sociological and anthropological theories generated in the physical world and expect them to work online. 1950s sociologist did not imagine that the foundation of their work, the underlying architectures, would shift. They assumed this to be constant and thus most of their work needs to be re-conceptualized with architecture as a variable.

And this, this is why i'm having fun.

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graffiti archaeology

Graffiti is one of those things that evolves over time in a city. When you see a graffiti wall, you know that there are layers of paint below it that express that city's ever-changing reality.

My friend Cassidy Curtis has been in awe of this phenomenon for ages and he put together a fantastic website entitled "Graffiti Archaeology" to allow us to navigate a city wall over time. He's been photographing walls and collecting images over time to compile these composites. Plus, now that it's hit the web, different artists are starting to donate graffiti images to him. [If you have graffiti archives, definitely send them his way!]

I really like this project because it takes advantage of the digital medium's ability to see temporal data in any order. Thus, you can see how the different graffiti elements have impacted new drawings, have been repurposed, or have been obliterated.

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November 26, 2003

why i study Friendster

Many folks have asked me why i study Friendster. Others ask how i've gotten here. Some wonder where i'm going.

Well, the The NYTimes asked those questions and wrote a profile of me. ::blush::

Of course, it's not the full story, because it can't be (only so much danah babble can fit into a 1500-word or whatever story). But even in the slice that is covered, i can hear myself and my advisors.

(Oh, and for those who are interested in some of my anecdotes, the article also includes interviews from two people whose Friendster stories inspired me.)

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babbling for the nytimes

The NYTimes did a profile of me. ::blush:: It's quite a riot because i can hear myself speaking and hear my advisors speaking. Plus, Michael interviewed two people who have some of my favorite Friendster stories and got them to tell their version of the story.

For those who don't want to read the story: it's basically a profile of me framed around my work with Friendster. Doing the interviews for this piece was fantastic! I got to tell the story of how i started studying technology, about my work with Andy/Judith/Peter (Genevieve/Henry...). I got to talk about why Friendster interested me (and why the business side is not my passion). Michael interviewed many of the people who have had an impact in what i'm doing (Andy, Peter, Genevieve) and those who are helping me think through the space now (Mark, Joi). To hear their reflections of their conversations with Michael is such a treasure.

::laugh:: I'm a giddy little girl right now.

November 27, 2003


Decoding the New Cues in Online Society
By MICHAEL ERARD

SOCIOLOGIST among geeks and a geek among sociologists, Danah Boyd has 278 friends who link her to 1.1 million others.


So says Friendster.com, whose millions of members have transformed it from a dating site into a free-for-all of connectedness where new social rules are born of necessity. A 25-year-old graduate student at the University of California at Berkeley, Ms. Boyd studies Friendster, hovering above the fray with a Web log called Connected Selves (www .zephoria.org/snt) and interviewing Friendster users. Her irrepressible observations have made her a social-network guru for the programmers and venture capitalists who swarm around Friendster and its competitors.


"She's definitely a Pied Piper for a bunch of different people," said Joichi Ito, a high-tech venture capitalist who lives in Tokyo. "At the same time she, as an academic, is able to articulate what is going on in a way that the people building the tools rarely understand or can articulate."


Ms. Boyd explained Friendster this way: "It allows you to purposely say who the people in your world are and to allow them to see each other, through a connection of you." An individual registered at Friendster has a home page with photos, a brief profile and photos of people to whom they have agreed to link. That person can then browse his or her network or search it for dates or activity partners.


Ms. Boyd says that the real world has a set of properties, which she calls architectures. With its deceptively simple set of features, her thinking goes, Friendster bends or replaces all of the real-world architectures.


For instance, when two people speak to each other, they assume their conversation is fleeting, but e-mail and instant messaging, by making that conversation persistent, offer a new architecture. When two people greet each other on the street, neither can see (nor hope to grasp) the range of the other's social network. For that matter, no individual can see information about his or her own social network: who knows whom, and how.


Friendster offers a mix of architecture-changing tools and technologies: e-mail, a profile (which offers a persistent presentation of self) and a coarse representation of a social network. "Friendster is an architectural change," Ms. Boyd said. "It's not a mimicry of a change; it's a total change." Once the early users of Friendster discovered these new architectures, they began to play with them. That's how Friendster evolved from a dating site into something else.


The basic idea behind Friendster and other social networking sites is not new. Neither is the technology, which is based on a business process patent from a 1997 site called SixDegrees.com that failed because too few people were online at the time. (That patent was recently purchased for $700,000 by two of Friendster's competitors.) Jonathan Abrams, a 33-year-old dot-com survivor, conceived of Friendster as a dating site, but people's social curiosity turned it into a place where everyone becomes the center of an unfolding drama (or comedy) of connections.


Ms. Boyd has found the site populated by a variety of subcultures: a large contingent of gay men from New York City, the Bay Area's Burning Man scene, ravers in Baltimore. Porn queens and venture capitalists share the site with neo-Nazis and garden-variety hipsters. Most users are in their 20's and 30's. Many are overseas, particularly in Asia.


Bringing all those worlds together is not without its perils. "What social software like Friendster does is collapse our networks in ways we're not used to," Ms. Boyd said.


Devon Lake, 25, a high school teacher, discovered that this fall when she was bombarded with requests from former students to accept them into her Friendster circle, which she uses to keep in touch with her friends from Burning Man, the annual primal gathering in the Nevada desert. The potential costs of putting one part of her network in contact with the other part were too high, so she rebuffed her students and cleaned up her profile by removing anything that could be interpreted as a reference to drugs. "I'm a young teacher, so drawing that line is already a careful balancing act," Ms. Lake said. "It made me feel on my guard about what I posted to the site."


Ms. Boyd pointed to another consequence of the new architecture: people have expanded their Friendster networks with imperial gusto. Some create fake friends called Pretendsters. These are fake profiles generated at www.tree-axis.com and automatically posted to Friendster.com. According to the Tree-axis site, approximately 8,000 Pretendsters coexist with real people on Friendster.


The Pretendsters also skew the site's user data. Currently 3.9 million accounts are registered at Friendster, though it is impossible to tell how many of those belong to real people. That's why 2,619 of the Pretendsters have been hunted and terminated by Friendster Webmasters.


There have also been Fakesters, evidence of how contemporary Americans crave connectedness. Users composed profiles for their pets (and then connected their pets), their colleges (and then connected to their alma maters) and household odds and ends (and then watched the conversation that developed between "salt" and "pepper"). To Ms. Boyd it was interesting not only because people played with identity, but also because of the range of reasons they did so.


Apparently Friendster management could conceive of only one reason: to subvert the site. So it began terminating the Fakesters. That set off a Fakester revolution, complete with a manifesto: "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all fakesters and real people are created equal."


Ms. Boyd's favorite story to emerge from a summer spent interviewing Fakesters was about two young men who invented a woman. Her name was Sarah Tuttle. "We wanted to make a woman to write introductions for us," encouraging other Friendster members to get in touch, said David Gartner, a 32-year-old marketing consultant. "We made her sort of confident, sort of sexy, all these things we wanted in a friend." Mr. Gartner put up a photo of an ex-girlfriend's midriff and made Sarah Tuttle a yoga instructor because, he said, "everybody in San Francisco is a yoga instructor."


Sarah Tuttle (whose profile can be found at vsgoliath.com/photos/tuttle) never became the author of an introduction, but other men thought she was real, so they began sending her messages. "We ended up seeing the view of what it's like being a woman," Mr. Gartner said. "There was all this weird stuff about Scrabble," one of the interests included in her profile.


Mr. Gartner and his friend responded only once to a man who seemed genuine. To their alarm, the man wrote back, prompting them to remove their creation from Friendster. Shortly afterward, Mr. Gartner met a real woman at a party and has been dating her ever since.


"The fact of the matter is that the space is being used in all those different ways," Ms. Boyd said. "But Friendster is trying to cut off any behavior that is not in line with their marketing perspective and the idea that this is a dating site."


Friendster's founder, Mr. Abrams, contacted by phone for this article, said the demands of running the site were such that he had no time to comment. Ms. Boyd said that Mr. Abrams had rejected her advice. "He didn't want to know anything that would help user experiences unless it has to do with dating," she said. "At another point he told me that it was my type of people who were ruining the system, meaning the Burning Man, freak, San Francisco crowd."


Would Ms. Boyd date his friends? "Oh, God, no," she said.


Even though she's part of the same network?


"Yeah, but it's hard not to be," she said.


This is another mistake that Friendster and other sites make, Ms. Boyd contends. The site is built on the premise that friendship is transitive; that is, that if A is a friend of B, and B a friend of C, then A can be a friend of C, too.


But friendship develops in social contexts, Ms. Boyd says; it doesn't just flow through the pipes of a network. "Just because you're friends with somebody doesn't mean their friends are similar in the type of context you are with your friends," she said. Unless the social networking sites adapt to how people need to use them, she said, the sites will not succeed.


A lively speaker sometimes inclined to pink hair, Ms. Boyd is part of a cohort of young scholars who are trying to come up with ways to describe these new social behaviors in the online environments in which they have grown up. She and her peers "are talking about this from an inside, embedded perspective," said Genevieve Bell, an anthropologist at IntelResearch who was a co-director of Ms. Boyd's master's thesis at M.I.T. "One of the challenges for them is, how do they analyze this thing they have grown up inside of?"


Ms. Boyd grew in up in Lancaster, Pa., and was introduced to far-flung virtual communities in the early 1990's by her younger brother. Soon afterward, their mother wisely signed up for two Compuserve accounts. "It gave me an opportunity to talk to people who were far more like me than anybody I knew in real life," Ms. Boyd said.


She said she comes to her research through experiences as a perpetual outsider. "I didn't grow up in an elite community," she said. "I was the daughter of a single mother. I grew up queer in a rural environment. I grew up as a woman in computer science. I grew up constantly negotiating these spaces where they didn't exactly welcome me with open arms."


After studying computer science as an undergraduate at Brown, she turned to the social side of things at M.I.T., studying at the Media Lab and producing a project that visualized people's e-mail networks.


Taking a year off from school, Ms. Boyd found herself in the Bay Area, hanging out with many of the people who were developing Friendster and other social-network sites. She began a blog to document what she saw; her critiques became useful; people began asking her - and hiring her - to do more.


The chief executive of one social-networking site, tribe.net, Mark Pincus, has sought her advice because she is involved in some of the groups to which his site tries to appeal. "Danah's this researcher, but she also lives the whole thing - the Burning Man scene, the rave scene, the techno music scene," he said.


Her academic supervisors are envious of her advantage. "I look at cyberspace the way a deep-sea diver looks at the sea: through a glass plate," said Ms. Boyd's academic adviser, Peter Lyman, a professor at Berkeley's School of Information Management and Systems. "She is out there swimming in it."


Yet she is not so immersed that she uses Friendster for dating. "I'm not theoretically opposed to it, and if I weren't studying it, I might think about it," she said. "It's a matter of not needing to mess with potential subjects. When I'm on the site, I don't want to be thinking about who's cute. I want to pay attention to the social behavior."

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Not at Home for the Holidays

by Ethan Watters, author of Urban Tribes
(posted here with permission)

Years ago, when we were young and new to the city, we called them "orphan Thanksgiving dinners." We were beginning our careers, scraping by as artists or working as waiters and we often couldn't afford the expense or time to make it back to family for the holiday. At the beginning of November those who knew they would be stranded in town spread the word and one by one friends of friends would make themselves known. When Thanksgiving Day rolled around the card tables placed end to end could not hold us all and many would be forced to couches and the edges of beds to balance paper plates on our knees.

The dinner was always potluck and there was always too much food. One year a table actually collapsed under the weight of the offerings. Many of us tried to recreate the tastes of our childhoods in our efficiency kitchens. We called home for family recipes, the more ironic the better. Someone would bring an elaborate Jell-O dish with Cool Whip and canned pineapple or a sweet potato casserole with mini-marshmallows. These dishes were partly spoofs on our middle class suburban upbringings but they were often eaten first because they reminded us of home.

After dinner a few friends would bring out their guitars or we'd read a play someone had been working on with each of us taking a part. We took rambling walks through the strangely calm city. There were more calls home to mothers for advice on how to remove wine or gravy stains from the couch. The celebration would stretch into the night. No one wanted to go back to his or her apartment alone.

It was years ago that we called those gatherings "orphan Thanksgiving dinners." Something about them changed as my friends and I reached our late twenties and early thirties. The celebrations became more formal. The paper plates and coffee mugs were replaced with real, breakable dishes and matching wine glasses. Rituals formed over the years. Friends now wrote songs and rehearsed plays specifically to be performed at Thanksgiving. The after dinner walk had a specific route through the park.

Our tastes became sophisticated, as did our cooking skills and the once haphazard potlucks turned into multi-course feasts. There would be portabella mushrooms stuffed with Brie cheese and artichoke hearts and butternut squash risotto with shavings of black truffle. A few up-and-coming gourmands became serious about their sauces. The yearly pie contest became brutally competitive. (Although there were half a dozen blue ribbons from "Best Crust" to "Most Creative Use of Fruit.") There was still too much to eat but one of us had bought a house with a dining room and a sturdy oak table that could seat us all and handle the weight of the food.

But those weren't the changes that mattered. What mattered was this: We could now afford the time and travel expense to make it home to our kin but we chose not to. More precisely, the very idea of where home was had changed in our minds. What had begun as an affiliation of friends of friends - a stopgap measure to support us during our time living outside of family -- had become the central social structure in our big city lives.

Looking back at my twenties, I can now picture us as explorers in a new social landscape where it was suddenly the norm for both men and women to spend ten or more years living single, far away from our families and hometowns. No one told us that we were going to delay marriage longer than any generation in American History and no one gave us a map for how to navigate that time. Faced with the social wilderness of the city we slowly forged communities among our friends. Years ago we gathered haphazardly because we could not make it home to family. This Thanksgiving, my friends and I will come together reverently with a desire to honor our group with this particular holiday. We give thanks for this self-made community and for the certainty that we are orphans no longer.

danah note: this essay made me smile. I will be spending my Thanksgiving with my SF crew cause i can't afford to go back east. I wrote to my mom asking for her stuffing recipe, because we're doing a potluck feast. This is my first Thanksgiving (and was my first birthday) not spent with the family. And i'm looking forward to the shared festivities and the blended rituals.

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constructing an audience

Lately, most of my (de)constructive thoughts have been focused at friends and myself (i.e. not my research). This has been soooo energizing. One on one, back and forth (de)constructive conversation. Critical feedback that is pushed directly and returned.

Plus, i've been talking to Fernanda frequently about blogging audiences.

This made me think about my own audience. I, better than most, have a deep understanding that my blog is a public presentation of self. And i have an understanding that while the content of this blog is not nearly as focused as my professional blog, my readership overlaps. But, even i, still foolishly imagine a certain level of security through obscurity.

I forget that people might care about my opinion (particularly those who don't agree with me). It's terribly odd to me that people might get upset when i take a week off of my opinion rants on Friendster, et. al. I don't see myself as a public figure and i still view my blog as a space to put out half-chewed ideas and get feedback. Unfortunately, my audience doesn't seem to agree. ::sigh::

So, my blogs have weirded me out lately. Even this note feeds oddly constructed... i have no idea who the hell is reading this, but i know it will be part of my public archive. And that's particularly strange since i deconstruct my own blog entries as though they are just another piece of text and i imagine what i must be like from these entries and what an odd picture...

And then there's interaction. I created the blog for my own records, but i put it out there publicly to engage folks to challenge me or provide me with better resources. Unfortunately, most commenting comes from spam. And the majority of non-spam comes from extreme opinons (or my beloved roommie) so i know that my audience is not represented in commenting land.

So who is my audience? Now? 10 years from now?

Whenever i go into these introspective moods, or try to go meta on myself, i find myself returning to the one-on-one. I always wonder what someone might think of my email archives. All of those highly directed musings, intended for an audience of one. Those interactions are so rich, so full of my confused head, my critical thinking skills, my philosophies, my religious views. I look back to the IMs and emails from this week and i see a reflection of myself. I look to my blog and i'm bored.

But this begs the question. What is it about this medium that doesn't let me to play through those thoughts? Certainly, there's the confusion about who my audience is. And the feeling of interactivity. But there's also the beauty of truly intimate interactions, the feeling of getting to know someone better, of jumping into their psyche, of saying things that no one else hears, of reaching new depths. We're all vulnerable at those depths.

But blogs do not provide safety for vulnerability. And thus i find myself going meta long before i dive down into the uncertainties that mark a contemplative mind.

Thoughts to chew on... 'cause this blog is still about the innane, the random and the irrelevant.

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November 25, 2003

Live Journal mood aggregation

A friend of mine just sent me the first round snapshot of the aggregation of the mood of Live Journal that she's helping Mark Handel do.

When Jesse & Andrew put together imood, they added a feature that let you know how the Internet was feeling. This was great, although a bit problematic since many people didn't update their profiles.

Of course, with LJ, people put their mood in with each post and thus, an aggregator can collect this. Of course, it's funny to think of a collective sense of LJers since they i would think that they are quite geographically diverse. Of course, they all seem to be tired right now so maybe it's not as diverse as i'd think....

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compelling environmental movie

Say whatever you want about Leonardo. But global warming movie is a really beautiful and compelling little reminder to the masses in a non-aggressive way. WATCH IT.

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flash mobs article

A friend of mine is highlighted in an article on Flash Mobs for his research in the area.

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(pseudo) apologies

Dear unknown audience:

My apologies for my recent absenteeism on this blog. As the term is nearing the end, my attention has been slightly diverted to thinking about Vannevar Bush (vs. Emanuel Goldberg), SCOT, Erving Goffman, reputation, mobile/camera phones, CHI, meta-blogging, etc.

I promise that i will come back with interesting commentary on the social networks space shortly, but if you are really bored and looking for danah babble, feel free to follow my non sequiturs at http://www.zephoria.org/thoughts/

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November 23, 2003

tech bloom in full flower

Alex's article on the tech bloom is out in the Seattle Post-Intelligencer. Yay!!

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November 21, 2003

ipod sharing

I can't help but smile every time i see someone with white cords sticking out of their coat pocket. It's like a dirty sign of solidarity, a fashion marker that bonds you all together. The white cord. The iPod.

Problem is that i hate those little ear things. They never fit into my ears. Thus, i had this weird secret sitting on the BART, listening to my iPod through my big black headphones. Well, as fate would have it, i lost one of the pads for my fancy earphones (which had been falling apart anyhow). So, when i went to buy my Screensavrz, i noticed that they had noise reduction iPod big headphones. Complete with white cord. I bought them. Since the, i'm once again ackowledged by other iPod strangers, back in the cool.

Well, apparently, i'm just not that cool enough. No one has ever asked me to !jack in! to their iPod.

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google archiving IRC?

After a bot belonging to a Google IP address kept appearing in various IRC channels, folks started blogging about it.

No one knows for certain if Google is archiving IRC interactions or otherwise tracking behavior, but it does continue to raise the question if Google realizes that taking information out of context might be more a disservice than a useful enterprise.

Even if Google was not inside the IRC channel, many people log these things (just as they did Usenet, in which Google was also not inside). Yet, just as people's notion of "public" in Usenet did not include persistent & searchable, i'm guessing that most IRC folks are also not really constructing each message as though it will go down on their permanent records.

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wired article on Friendster/Tribe

Today's Wired article discussing Friendster vs. Tribe is quite interesting.

The basic critique against Friendster is:
1) They lack a sense of humor
2) They treat people as individuals rather than parts of communities or groups
3) Service is slow; there is no consumer service
4) They use heavy-handed politics and their dictator tendencies are not winning them fans

Yet, compared to Tribe, it has succeeded because it is so dating-focused and because:

"I like Friendster because it is more people-oriented," she says. "Tribe is more geared towards selling used blenders and looking for a job. I don't need to be reminded how many jobless people there are, or what awful things people will do for a buck.... What I want is the fantasy that we are all rock stars, that everyone's ass looks great in leather, that everyone is sexy."

Anyhow, read the article!

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let water become fire

It has been a very peculiar week and i'm still scratching my head. Life has its balances though. Pay the consequences for foolish actions, repent and be selfless for a moment and get repaid in intriguing ways.

People always talk about living in historical moments. They're talking about historical on a more monumental scale. I'm always stunned when i'm living through a period that i know that i'll never forget much of the absurdity of it. Normally, it's my own doing... normally, i create my own adventures. But this week... this week has been an act of gravity, force, fate and synchronicity.

So strange. Ah yes, Scorpio is transforming into Sagittarius. Let water become fire!

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November 20, 2003

emanuel goldberg

I can't help but slip into story time whenever i listen to an older male with a British accent, particularly professors; it just reminds me so strongly of my grandfather. Thus, i absolutely love listening to Professor Buckland talk about his ideas; i just sit there in a trance, completely incapable of thinking critically, but in love with everything presented. He convinced me to love him on my first visit to SIMS, explaining how SIMS is not interdisciplinary, but methodologically diverse while focused on one body of knowledge (i.e. departments vs. schools, methodology vs. target body of knowledge).

Well, this week, Professor Buckland told us stories about Vannevar Bush and Emanuel Goldberg.

I spent my formative years under the guidance of Andy van Dam. As such, i was indoctrinated with the philosophy that Vannevar Bush is god.

Thus, when Buckland started telling us the story of Emanuel Goldberg, i was floored. A new book will be coming out shortly, but the simple answer is that Goldberg had pattened and CREATED the memex before Bush, long before Bush. Emanuel Goldberg appears to be a brilliant man who history has ignored (and Buckland is going to right that historical wrong).

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November 18, 2003

perception and abstract representation

One of my professors presented this New Yorker cartoon in his lecture. It's *brilliant*. What does it mean to present an abstract representation of an idea and have others "read" that idea? When does conveying something work and when does it not? What are the implications of such?

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rape in bosnia... a must read

After many years of working for V-Day, i can never forget the look on Eve's face back in 1998 when she told us about her visits to Bosnian refuge camps. There were six of us, all students, all determined to carry on the V-Day spirit and the second-hand look of incomprehension, horror and loss still sticks in my head, particularly since it came from one of the most vibrant and passionate women i've ever met.

This morning, through the blog world, i was given a pointer to "a cradle of inhumanity". It's a heartbreaking feature story, echoing the pain that i always saw in second-hand form from Eve. The struggle of women who give birth to children after having been raped. The inequalities of being raped as a systematic tactic of war... not being recognized as a victim, not being given any level of economic or social support. The inequalities, the pain.

It's hard to hear about this level of pain second-hand. I cannot imagine having a child that way. I cannot imagine the horrors that these women go through. But i can read, i can listen and i can try to make it never happen again.

I ask you to do the same.

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gay marriage in Massachusetts

Last week, Massachusetts' highest court declared the state's ban on gay marriage to be unconstitutional and demanded that the state change its laws. The CNN article on the topic is fascinating, revealing the underlying tensions.

- Is marriage about children?
- Do the courts have the responsibility to protect marginalized populations?
- Why are men far more afraid of gay culture than women?

Why do people in power feel so motivated by inequality that they are determined to make a constitutional amendment to protect their way of life? I'm fascinated by the fears that this issue strikes in straight folks... what on earth is the big deal? It's funny because we live in a country that likes to preach certain rhetoric but not really defend it.

Equality for all! (When could women vote? What about blacks?) Tolerance! Separation of church and state!

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(CNN) -- Massachusetts' highest court ruled Tuesday that the state cannot deny gays and lesbians the right to marry and ordered the state's lawmakers to devise changes in the law within six months.

In a 4-3 ruling, the court stopped short of allowing marriage licenses to be issued to the seven couples that challenged the Massachusetts law.

The ruling could set new legal ground, and drew quick reaction from advocates on both sides of the issue.

Massachusetts Gov. Mitt Romney issued a paper statement saying he believes marriage should be between a man and a woman and he would support an amendment to the state's constitution "to make that expressly clear."

"Barred access to the protections, benefits, and obligations of civil marriage, a person who enters into an intimate, exclusive union with another of the same sex is arbitrarily deprived of membership in one of our community's most rewarding and cherished institutions," the court's ruling said. "That exclusion is incompatible with the constitutional principles of respect for individual autonomy and equality under law."

Vermont is the only state in the United States that allows same-sex couples the rights and benefits of marriage. Vermont calls them civil unions, rather than marriage. California's State Assembly recently passed a domestic partnership law to provide similar benefits, but it stops short of allowing gays to marry. (States determine marriage laws)
Governor might seek alternative to marriage

Romney left the door open for some other way of recognizing same-sex couples.

"Of course," he said, "we must provide basic civil rights and appropriate benefits to nontraditional couples, but marriage is a special institution that should be reserved for a man and a woman."

Connie Mackey of the conservative Family Research Council criticized the ruling, saying it was "a clear case of the courts overruling the majority opinion of the people."

"If the will of the people has anything to do with it ... the people will throw out any legislator that upholds this ruling," she told CNN. "The culture has seen the family unit for thousands of years as one man and one woman for the purpose of raising children."

Mackey also urged passage of a federal constitutional amendment barring same-sex marriages.

But Elizabeth Birch, director of the gay rights organization Human Rights Campaign, argued that the courts are not obliged to support a majority of the people.

"If not for courts, African-Americans would not have had the right to vote, women would not have the right to vote," she said. "The purpose of a constitution is to protect a minority group from the wrath of the majority.

"The majority of people understand that a government-issued civil license to marry is not a threat to anyone," Birch added.
Court used constitution as basis for ruling

The seven same-sex couples that sued the state for denying them marriage licenses argued the Massachusetts' constitution prohibits discrimination because of sex.

In its ruling, the Massachusetts court rejected arguments based on religious or moral grounds -- from either side of the contentious issue.

"Our concern is with the Massachusetts Constitution as a charter of governance for every person properly within its reach," the ruling said.

"The question before us is whether, consistent with the Massachusetts Constitution, the commonwealth may deny the protections, benefits, and obligations conferred by civil marriage to two individuals of the same sex who wish to marry," the court said. "We conclude that it may not."
Opposition to gay marriage, survey shows
Mark Carmien, right, owner of Pride and Joy of Northampton, Massachusetts, celebrates with friends after the state Supreme Judicial Court's ruling.
Mark Carmien, right, owner of Pride and Joy of Northampton, Massachusetts, celebrates with friends after the state Supreme Judicial Court's ruling.

The U.S. Supreme Court is unlikely to interfere in the ruling, which was made solely on the basis of state law and not brought into federal courts.

Gay activists say the American judicial system is beginning to catch up with modern society.

In June the Supreme Court ruled that anti-sodomy laws are unconstitutional. (Full story) On June 10, an appeals court in the Canadian province of Ontario struck down a ban on same-sex marriage.

But a majority of people surveyed in late October said gay marriages should not be legally recognized, according to a CNN/USA Today/Gallup poll. According to the survey, 61 percent said no when asked whether gay marriages should be recognized as valid by law. Thirty-five percent said yes.

The poll, taken October 24-26, surveyed 1,006 people and had an error margin of plus or minus three percentage points.

The same poll showed sharp difference on the issue based on gender. According to the survey, 70 percent of men said no to legalizing gay marriage while 26 percent supported such unions. The survey showed that 53 percent of women opposed gay marriages, while 43 percent supported legalizing them. The question posed by gender had a sampling error of plus or minus five percentage points.

CNN Correspondent Maria Hinojosa contributed to this report.

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November 17, 2003

wabi-sabi

I was exchanging ideas with a friend today and he asked if i knew of the concept "wabi-sabi." I did not and he sent me on a google chase while briefly noting that it explained the Japanese aesthetic. Wiki upon wiki referenced the same thought:

It is a beauty of things imperfect, impermanent, and incomplete. It is a beauty of things modest and humble. It is a beauty of things unconventional.

Needless to say, this aligns quite well with Zen, but it also hold great power in the context of the conversation. We were discussing why people bother to know one another, what creates draw. I was noting that the most interesting people for me are those that i don't understand, those that challenge my constructs, the differences. Everything is changing; everyone is evolving and it is that process that is so beautiful to me, far more than some completed picture. I've never believed in a universal and thus this concept really sits well with me.

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not broken, just sprained

OK, my toe isn't broken, but it is really badly sprained. It's purple and i can't put any weight on it. They have me on crutches which i can't use because of my carpal tunnel. Thus, i feel even more useless; i totally forget that i wouldn't be able to use crutches. Berkeley is *not* easy to get around normally, let alone when all banged up. It has tons of hills, no parking (even if you have the handicapped permit) and no services to help you navigate the campus. Plus, South Hall is *smack* in the middle of the campus. I'd been wishing for a tram before, but oh dear do i beg for one now.

I scored a $50 parking ticket this morning trying to deal with this process (not helping the unnecessary spending rule) and i couldn't even make it to my second class because i couldn't penetrate campus to get to it (after about 2 minutes on crutches, my hands go numb).

Not sure what to do. But my roommates are right: this is one of life's exercises in slowing down. And of course it's my birthday week. Have i ever not been sick on my birthday? I always attributed it to my body being run-down before Thanksgiving and me just breaking, but perhaps it's just karma.

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November 16, 2003

my Ani site used for liner notes !?!?!

So, a few months back, i learned that Righteous Babe was using my lyrics site to print lyrics for deaf patrons of Ani concerts. Today, a fan pointed me to this article in The Mercury News. Apparently, RBR is using lyrics sites to generate liner notes for Ani's albums. Oh dear me.

They do note that there are tons of errors in whatever fan site they are using. I have to say that if it's mine, i certainly know it. I also know that way too many other fan sites copy my lyrics for their sites, replicating the errors.

So, if you're from RBR and you're reading this, would you mind sending me the fixes that you do for liner notes? I'd love to fix up my version... it's only screwy because it's the version that i got from transcriptions of Ani's recordings.

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