one of the things that the ADD testing, and reading about ADD, did for me is stop me from feeling so guilty about me-isms.

right now, i am working on getting over my issues with learning and education. i know that i am pretty darn bright, even though that has been pushed out of me pretty systematically in the last few years. i know that i am capable of learning things, but i am learning now that i really do have specific ways of learning things, and if those needs aren’t met, i have a hard time learning.

for example, i cannot learn from a book. this is not just an impatience thing, or a don’t want to thing, this is a problem that can’t be easily overcome (although i am trying). forcing me to learn from a book does not help the situation (thank you evil math professors). giving me manuals and telling me to try harder doesn’t solve the problem. i have a hard time reading. it is really difficult for me. it is really frustrating. telling me to get over it doesn’t alleviate that.

now.. i just have to keep this confidence long enough to make it through another year and hopefully learn something. ::breathe:: realize your strengths and weaknesses and don’t let other people get in the way of that. ::breathe::