competition is not for me. i love playing games (even “competitive” board or card games and sports) but i don’t play with a competitive edge. if i win, i win. if i lose, damn… oh well no big deal. i think this is why games are fun… i don’t put the world into them and i enjoy them for the general game. often when i play with others, the result of the game is that person’s mood for the day this is rather frustrating and disappointing… when i was walking to a class last week, hyon gak sunim reminded me that the result of the exam would not matter in three years. the same goes with a game. when i am fort, i won’t care that i lost one round of magic today in fifteen minutes. so why should i worry about it now? put the thought down; it just does not matter…