{"id":246,"date":"2002-05-12T11:01:30","date_gmt":"2002-05-12T11:01:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/ubuntu.my\/wp30\/archives\/2002\/05\/12\/socializing_envy.html"},"modified":"2002-05-12T11:01:30","modified_gmt":"2002-05-12T11:01:30","slug":"socializing_envy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/archives\/2002\/05\/12\/socializing_envy.html","title":{"rendered":"socializing envy&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>one of the major problems with holing myself up to do work is that i get socializing envy.  this is particularly true because everyone emails everyone about socializing events.  thus, even in my inability to participate, i see the participation happening and i see the fun that people had in the post-party message post.  plus, right now is the season of pre-party planning.  how absurd is that?  we are already planning for a party that doesn&#8217;t happen until the end of August.  given, it&#8217;s <a href=\"http:\/\/www.burningman.com\/\">burning man<\/a> and it requires an obsessive amount of planning.  and since we are thousands of miles away and have no money, it just requires coordination.  but it&#8217;s sooo sad to <a href=\"http:\/\/chaoshacker.org\/wiki\/wiki.pl?Chaoswiki\">hear bostonburn folks<\/a> plan and know that i can&#8217;t participate in the planning for another month or so.   ::sigh:: <br \/>\nmore and more i realize that socializing is just fundamentally who i am.  i like being out with people, engaging and being silly, seeing how minds work, not just reading about them, learning about what it means to live life just to live.  i hate being too far removed from reality &#8211; it just feels gross.<br \/>\non the other hand, these days i feel like the ultimate genuine <a href=\"http:\/\/www.dictionary.com\/search?q=geek\">geek<\/a>; i could bite the head off of anything in matters of seconds &#8211; i&#8217;m just too schitzed out.  on that note, back to my non-reality work tornado of chaos.  i feel like a brick being thrown continuously against a wall.  it&#8217;s probably a good thing that i&#8217;m not seeing people these days &#8211; better to avoid when you know that you can&#8217;t bring any positive energy to an interaction.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>one of the major problems with holing myself up to do work is that i get socializing envy. this is particularly true because everyone emails everyone about socializing events. thus, even in my inability to participate, i see the participation happening and i see the fun that people had in the post-party message post. plus, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-246","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-reflections-rants"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/246","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=246"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/246\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=246"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=246"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=246"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}