{"id":219,"date":"2001-10-07T05:00:43","date_gmt":"2001-10-07T05:00:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/ubuntu.my\/wp30\/archives\/2001\/10\/07\/219.html"},"modified":"2001-10-07T05:00:43","modified_gmt":"2001-10-07T05:00:43","slug":"219","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/archives\/2001\/10\/07\/219.html","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>i&#8217;ve decided that this getting older thing just outright sucks. every year i gain more knowledge, more awareness of history, a greater ability to sense what is going on, a stronger understanding of myself and my weaknesses. but to what avail? how is this really helpful? really &#8211; it makes me feel more useless and bitter, angry, lonely and depressed. the path to enlightenment surely cannot be through knowledge in any way shape or form.<\/p>\n<p>i am fascinated by how we think that we can feel better. money? drugs? knowledge? materialism? spirituality? power? very peculiar opiates, really. and not particularly useful for any long period of time. i always love movies that remind me that having things doesn&#8217;t fix anything, because it&#8217;s really easy to think that it might in the american capitalist culture&#8230; makes me love the &#8220;Traffic&#8221; esque movies..<\/p>\n<p>speaking of which &#8211; isn&#8217;t it about time to start having good cynical movies coming out in time for the big awards?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>i&#8217;ve decided that this getting older thing just outright sucks. every year i gain more knowledge, more awareness of history, a greater ability to sense what is going on, a stronger understanding of myself and my weaknesses. but to what avail? how is this really helpful? really &#8211; it makes me feel more useless and [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-219","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/219","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=219"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/219\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=219"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=219"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.zephoria.org\/thoughts\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=219"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}