Every New Year’s Day, i try to come up with a resolution that will help increase sanity in some way or another. Thus, today, i reflected on the past year.<\/p>\n
Last year, i resolved to address particular problems in my personal life. As much as it has been a struggle, i feel much stronger this year in that domain, having made some truly wise decisions to gain control and value my sanity first and foremost.<\/p>\n
Yet, while i took hold of some things, my professional life spiraled more than i would like to admit. So much goodness has emerged (thank you to all involved in helping with that), but i have my mother’s tendency to forget the necessity of the word ‘no’ and thus have gotten in quite a bit over my head. I have been stretched so thin that i feel brittle and snappy. I know that it is not a good cycle to go 24\/7 continuously for months and then crash and burn at holidays, yet i do it ritually. Thus, the meta issue is that i need to construct boundaries.<\/p>\n
In thinking today, i realized another thing about sanity checks. I love engaging with my friends. I love engaging with my work. Yet, both are truly mind exhausting and i’m feeling that immensely. I realized that, since i moved to San Francisco, i’ve drastically decreased “entertain me” time. This must changed.<\/p>\n
“Entertain me” time is the time that i spend being entertained by outside stimuli without having to engage back mentally. Movies, books, dancing were always staples of the “entertain me” time. When i was in Boston, i saw virtually a movie a week. Whenever we’d had enough of the Media Lab, we’d romp over to Kendall and see whatever was on next. I read pleasure books on the T, sat in the Commons people watching. Most notably, i went dancing 2x per week where less than 1 hour of each was devoted to socializing. (Since i’ve moved to SF, the majority of dance time is spent socializing, not dancing. Or socializing on the dance floor by interactive dancing, not trance dancing.) And darnit, i’ve stopped exercising and meditating, both of which were huge mental downtimes.<\/p>\n
Perhaps i’m getting old, but i need more mental downtime than i’m getting. (And, no doubt, i need more physical body time.) Thus, i resolve to work on increasing my ability to strictly create boundaries on my time and increase my mental downtime through a combination of “entertain me” time and other meditative activities.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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