October 19, 1997

i am peeved. i just sat through an hour and a half of two tas yelling at each other over what the correct answer. this would be perfectly acceptable if it wasn't a class where i have a midterm in two days, don't understand one word of what is going on and this was the help session. so, confused and frustrated i started to think...
why am i in cs? yeah, i enjoy programming; it is fun. i don't even know if i want to do it for the rest of my life and the classes that i have to take confuse me more than help me. i don't understand what i am doing and i spend more time on those activities than on anything else. most of the computer science classes should be the only thing that you do that semester for the amount of time that it takes up. shu had one good point the other day: computer science warps your idea of "long time." someone tells me that something will take a lot of time so i think 30/40 hours and they thing 8/10 hours. weird.

doesn't it seem pointless? i am just so confused and i feel like i am wandering with no direction and that that is bad. i am failing exams (even though everyone else is, it is frustrating). yeah, i can let it go but isn't that a problem? i am letting everything go so now i am more confused. argh! frustration!

Category: meditations

Posted by zephoria at October 19, 1997 10:30 PM | TrackBack